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A friend showed me something tonight and its heavily effected me.
I can't go into details, but basicly its made me realise something I allways knew but ignored.
Some people are worse off than me.
This particuler thing was a billion times worse than anything I could possably imagine.
This person survived. And I can't survive what has happened to me.
This has reminded me what a worthless waste of space I truely am, all the people offering me encouragement lately allmost had be beliveing that I actully deserve to life.
I obviously don't.
I have never hated myself more than I do now.
I can't go into details, but basicly its made me realise something I allways knew but ignored.
Some people are worse off than me.
This particuler thing was a billion times worse than anything I could possably imagine.
This person survived. And I can't survive what has happened to me.
This has reminded me what a worthless waste of space I truely am, all the people offering me encouragement lately allmost had be beliveing that I actully deserve to life.
I obviously don't.
I have never hated myself more than I do now.