for real to be the last
this time its up and over with, my journal is going to be gone for real now, not that anyone actually will mind. today i have made many thoughts on current and past decisions i have made. pertaining to certain people and nothing at all. if you understand you would listen. if you really ever cared you would listen, if at any point you had intentions to love you would have taken time to show it. i recall once saying way back when that i felt like a tool and in reality thats what i became. some know and some dont but it never seems to matter anymore to people. i think that no matter how i feel i will be let down and my trust has become a certain impossiblity for most of you. you allowed something so pointless to take over and its not really you, come back and see what you have done and dont run away. in the bible it says that when man and woman become so involved in them selves that the 2nd coming of christ would happen, close if a matter of a brat has anything to do with it were in for a lot more than we can handle. im a person, i know i dont seem to be anymore but i feel the same as you, if when you decide all of you to stop and think about were your at dont do something drastic and hopeless, ive made many mistakes already and i have no way to fix them. and i take what you said as a direct attack against me.