MY LAST POST

[carsondude]

This summer was awesome. I remember on the last day of school me brian and miles went to a roughriders baseball game together. so much has happened since then. that seems liike forever ago. The cruise was....so long ago. Colorado was....a trip to last a lifetime. Those 2 weeks of jazz camp were....fun and educational and everything. But really everything. this whole summer was fillled with thousands of stories and memories. The posse will never die. But now that band has started. It is the proof that summer is over. I registered today for my senior year. So much changes from sophomore year to senior year. I think of myself then and I think of who and what I wanted to be this year and some things are different. For example I was going to try out for senior drum major senior year. that didn't happen. Read senior wills today. Been waiting for those for a while. I got pretty much what I expected. None of the seniors didn't like me. Thanks to everyone who wrote to me. I'm going to miss you all so much that I feel like I have to start everything over because I'm not sure who I am anymore. After 2 years of friendship everyday with 30-40 people....it's a tough loss. now sure I'm glad to see some go but others I don't think I will ever recover from. And it's not like your going somewhere that I can follow. You're not all going to some "next" school that I can go to next year...most of you I will never see again. and the few that i do will be like 3 times a year. Come back and visit. Just give me a call and tell me how glad you are to be out of high school. The memories I had with you will never be forgotten. I have some friends in your class that I consider my best friends. Of course drew and patrick are essentially my brothers. drew and I share a special bond that I don't even understand. but anyway. to all of you, thank you. for the fun, for the crazy, for the late night talks, for the dances, for the good times. have a kick ass freshman year and don't think you're too cool to come back. Just give me a call and we'll do something random and crazy ass. Like the subject specifies, this is my last post. I decided this thing is not going the way I want it to and people just get pissed off about it anyway. I don't talk to anybody online because it's gay and I'm trying to get away from my addiction. anyway, the person I made this for is now graduated and I see no reason to continue. It's senior year. high school's almost over and I'm not going to waste it writing on here or worrying about this thing. It's been a great run but with this class gone, I must end it. In about a week I'll delete the entire journal. So if you want to dig back and see what I wrote a year ago, feel free. I will probably do the same. And now for my final goodbye.
-carson "to a great senior year" marston
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date created 4-7-04
final post 8-2-05
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