okay for real now.
this year has been the craziest year ever, not just emotionally, but so physically trying, and career-wise, and when i woke up this morning and looked over at him, and he was still asleep with a day old scruff dusting his cheek and the sheets crumpled up around that angel face, i couldn't help but wonder for a moment or seventeen how the hell i even made it through.
different in tone, in exercise, maybe.
i'm not sure yet what i resolve to do this year. maybe try to stop being annoying? (haaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh, never gonna happen). maybe to stop being so outlandish? (pshhhhhhhhhhhh). maybe to stop hiding everything and just letting it go? hey. it worked once. then again, the one time was all i needed, and all i wanted, and there's been so much for so long. i wish i was more poetic and had an easier way to put things into words to write down and express. unfortunately, i'm better with buttons than words, so i digress.
and maybe the fact that i don't know how to say what i want to say says more than i ever could, and maybe it doesn't. but the ones who know just know, and i like that they just know, so i will leave it like this and wish everyone the best year of their lives in this 2005 upcoming one, and go on my merry way.
have a great year.
different in tone, in exercise, maybe.
i'm not sure yet what i resolve to do this year. maybe try to stop being annoying? (haaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh, never gonna happen). maybe to stop being so outlandish? (pshhhhhhhhhhhh). maybe to stop hiding everything and just letting it go? hey. it worked once. then again, the one time was all i needed, and all i wanted, and there's been so much for so long. i wish i was more poetic and had an easier way to put things into words to write down and express. unfortunately, i'm better with buttons than words, so i digress.
and maybe the fact that i don't know how to say what i want to say says more than i ever could, and maybe it doesn't. but the ones who know just know, and i like that they just know, so i will leave it like this and wish everyone the best year of their lives in this 2005 upcoming one, and go on my merry way.
have a great year.