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i suck at following through.
i make all these plans and goals and never accomplish any of them.
I was supposed to lose weight before this trip.
i've lost a total of three pounds this summer.
And a total of maybe five so far this year.
I fail at life.
So, this begins a new goal making process!
(lists and goals make me feel safe, like I have something to work toward, I have decided this about myself. I'm a loser)
So new goals:
As soon as i get back from washington I'm going to start exercising like its my job.
Not only will going to the gym all the freaking time get me out of the house, feeling good about myself, etc., but I'll be saving money, meeting cute boys, hopefully, and not wasting away and feeling like a stupid fatty at the end of every night.
I'm going to eat less fast food. once a week if i can swing it. Its just so much easier to get fast food than to sit at home and make healthy shit for myself. I think with my clothing allowance, after I pay my bills and get one uniform, I'm going to stock up on health food, then I won't have an excuse. I'm going to get a ton of low calorie frozen dinners. yum. and learn to cook, or something. haha.
I want to look good when I leave Malmstrom. I want to look good when I cross train. I want to be healthy. I want to look and feel good at my next duty station.
I want to lose weight before I go back to Iowa. I want to lose weight for Anton's wedding so I can look at the measurements and NOT want to kill myself. (oh, and so i can pick up hot dudes, of course..)
haha
i dont know.
I'm just tired of myself and there isn't much more i can change about myself at this point!
i'm stoked about the tattoos though. After washington, I don't have that much to look forward to. Jill is leaving, there won't be any more male prospects once i cross Oli and Jon off the list (unless of course i fall madly in love with one of them and get married, which i could go for at this point) and it just seems like there isn't much tangible stuff to look forward to!
Oi.
At least I'll be getting a raise this month. That's always exciting.
PS i can't believe its almost FUCKING AUGUST.
WTF MAN!
I have a busy week ahead of me:
Thursday: promotion ceremony and the fair!
Friday: Camping at the cabin
Saturday: Dinner with Kevin, drinks with Kevin, maybe meeting up with the boy from monday
Sunday: maybe sunday night dinner, if i didnt piss carp off too much
Monday: packing and getting my shit together
Tuesday: getting my nails done and getting everything ready to go
Wedneday: Idaho!
Thursday: dinner with my sister in law, tattoos, celebration!
Friday: more celebration
Saturday: warped tour
Sunday: getting ready to come home
Monday: coming home
Tuesday: hating life in montana again.
WOO
i make all these plans and goals and never accomplish any of them.
I was supposed to lose weight before this trip.
i've lost a total of three pounds this summer.
And a total of maybe five so far this year.
I fail at life.
So, this begins a new goal making process!
(lists and goals make me feel safe, like I have something to work toward, I have decided this about myself. I'm a loser)
So new goals:
As soon as i get back from washington I'm going to start exercising like its my job.
Not only will going to the gym all the freaking time get me out of the house, feeling good about myself, etc., but I'll be saving money, meeting cute boys, hopefully, and not wasting away and feeling like a stupid fatty at the end of every night.
I'm going to eat less fast food. once a week if i can swing it. Its just so much easier to get fast food than to sit at home and make healthy shit for myself. I think with my clothing allowance, after I pay my bills and get one uniform, I'm going to stock up on health food, then I won't have an excuse. I'm going to get a ton of low calorie frozen dinners. yum. and learn to cook, or something. haha.
I want to look good when I leave Malmstrom. I want to look good when I cross train. I want to be healthy. I want to look and feel good at my next duty station.
I want to lose weight before I go back to Iowa. I want to lose weight for Anton's wedding so I can look at the measurements and NOT want to kill myself. (oh, and so i can pick up hot dudes, of course..)
haha
i dont know.
I'm just tired of myself and there isn't much more i can change about myself at this point!
i'm stoked about the tattoos though. After washington, I don't have that much to look forward to. Jill is leaving, there won't be any more male prospects once i cross Oli and Jon off the list (unless of course i fall madly in love with one of them and get married, which i could go for at this point) and it just seems like there isn't much tangible stuff to look forward to!
Oi.
At least I'll be getting a raise this month. That's always exciting.
PS i can't believe its almost FUCKING AUGUST.
WTF MAN!
I have a busy week ahead of me:
Thursday: promotion ceremony and the fair!
Friday: Camping at the cabin
Saturday: Dinner with Kevin, drinks with Kevin, maybe meeting up with the boy from monday
Sunday: maybe sunday night dinner, if i didnt piss carp off too much
Monday: packing and getting my shit together
Tuesday: getting my nails done and getting everything ready to go
Wedneday: Idaho!
Thursday: dinner with my sister in law, tattoos, celebration!
Friday: more celebration
Saturday: warped tour
Sunday: getting ready to come home
Monday: coming home
Tuesday: hating life in montana again.
WOO