saint jimmy's coming down across the alleyway<3.
so i've learned that sometimes the best thing to do is always be honest about the way you feel about someone, because otherwise, it can end up hurting you more than you could ever imagine. no matter how hard it is, or how much it makes you cry, eventually you have to admit what you're really feeling. it hurts more if no one knows, and if you keep it all bottled up inside, you're just like everyone else who is scared to show weakness or vulnerability. take chances. so what if it hurts. it's inevitable. so what if you're scared. what's life without a little fear? would you rather be sheltered from everything and be safe and not experience feelings so intense they can make you cry, or would you rather be out living and getting hurt and picking yourself up again but knowing that this is life and that something better will always come along no matter how shitty things can be at that moment in time? it's worth it in the end. the pain and the crying and the shaky voice.. everything comes together into something beautiful, whether it's a friendship or a relationship. everything balances out and you realize how good life really is and how lucky you are to have a certain person in your life that you know is a great influence on people and that has changed you for the better. realizing that makes you want to live even more. say what you mean and mean what you say. :]
and that boy that i adore.. i miss him more and more each day. a stampede of elephants and one psycho ex girlfriend couldn't ever keep me away because i know that he's one of those people that are one in a million. i'm lucky<3.
life is so complicated. but it's amazing. :]