oh, you look so beautiful tonight<3.
so i've decided that i'm officially done with dealing with people who don't give a damn about me and lie to me without the slightest hint of guilt. it's over, and it sucks because i'm definitely going to miss the friendship that i THOUGHT me and this guy had, but maybe it's for the best. maybe he'll realize that i'm not the one he should be blaming for all of his problems. only time will tell..
as for the boy i miss.. i miss him a little more each day until i see him again. he knows it, i know it. and everyone around me can see that he's making a difference because i'm actually smiling and happy more often than i'm not. he makes getting up in the morning easier, helps me get through the day, and lets me sleep better at night. it probably sounds crazy, but this whole thing is the truth. and for the first time in a long time, i feel like i did something right, because whatever it was, i got a friend like him<33. even if we don't end up together (as much as i want to), then i have an amazing friend that i can turn to no matter what happens. he makes me so fucking happy<333333.
oh.. and i found out the definition i promised. i don't think we fit into that category. :P
FLiNG -- a brief indulgence of your impulses, wants, or desires.