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mmmk so you know over these past 4 months i have been handed so much shit:
-my friends basicly deserting me
-my grandparents bad car wreck
-having to deal with a certain boy
-my car rolling down my driveway and hitting the tree
-my mom sending me to a psychiatrist
so between all of these things and so much emotional shit and depression you would think that life would slowly get better or at least back to normal but no life keeps throwing more and more shit at me.....example: yesterday i am on my way to work and my car starts shaking and then stops so i don't worry about it but then i pass the galleria exit and it starts again and my speed starts dropping pretty quickly so i pull over i call my dad and can't reach him so i call my mom and tell her whats happened so more stuff happened but in the end my car has died and we had to get it towed and i don't know whats wrong with it so as of now i drive my moms car to work
so im ready....throw some more shit on my plate im used to it, im pretty sure i can't get more depressed than this....maybe my mom was right sending me to a psychiatrist if only i was still going cuz as of now i just need someone to hold me, let me cry my eyes out, and listen to my problems but you know never in my life have i ever had anyone like that so i don't expect to find anyone soon so ill just keep on with my regular schedule of crying myself to sleep everynight.
-my friends basicly deserting me
-my grandparents bad car wreck
-having to deal with a certain boy
-my car rolling down my driveway and hitting the tree
-my mom sending me to a psychiatrist
so between all of these things and so much emotional shit and depression you would think that life would slowly get better or at least back to normal but no life keeps throwing more and more shit at me.....example: yesterday i am on my way to work and my car starts shaking and then stops so i don't worry about it but then i pass the galleria exit and it starts again and my speed starts dropping pretty quickly so i pull over i call my dad and can't reach him so i call my mom and tell her whats happened so more stuff happened but in the end my car has died and we had to get it towed and i don't know whats wrong with it so as of now i drive my moms car to work
so im ready....throw some more shit on my plate im used to it, im pretty sure i can't get more depressed than this....maybe my mom was right sending me to a psychiatrist if only i was still going cuz as of now i just need someone to hold me, let me cry my eyes out, and listen to my problems but you know never in my life have i ever had anyone like that so i don't expect to find anyone soon so ill just keep on with my regular schedule of crying myself to sleep everynight.