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not having any real desire to update this - is pretty nice. i'm not sure why, it's nice to have.. but not to depend on.
lately has been really good. i'm pretty content. i've noticed that i'm spending from around 8 am - 10 pm daily with friends and i'm substantially happier. i really, really, really love my friends.
i am three IB test hours away, 2 spanish vocab quizzes and 6 gym classes away from being a commack high school graduate. i am pretty certain i'm gonna spend the months of june and august crying. it'll be the norm - and it'll actually be a big deal to see me when i'm not crying. that's when people will think there is something wrong. i mean, it was february a week and a half ago. and now i'm on senior project. i knew the whole year that i was a senior but i might not have fully understood what that meant.
this week we found out the chorale is singing bridge over troubled water at graduation - which is essentially all i ever wanted, to sing with my best friends some sappy ass song while we wear ugly gowns in sweltering heat. since freshman year, it's what we wanted. and it wasn't really in the cards for us - so it's pretty sick that it's going to happen anyways.
life is okay. now if the realtors would get the fuck out of my house, i'll be good.
lately has been really good. i'm pretty content. i've noticed that i'm spending from around 8 am - 10 pm daily with friends and i'm substantially happier. i really, really, really love my friends.
i am three IB test hours away, 2 spanish vocab quizzes and 6 gym classes away from being a commack high school graduate. i am pretty certain i'm gonna spend the months of june and august crying. it'll be the norm - and it'll actually be a big deal to see me when i'm not crying. that's when people will think there is something wrong. i mean, it was february a week and a half ago. and now i'm on senior project. i knew the whole year that i was a senior but i might not have fully understood what that meant.
this week we found out the chorale is singing bridge over troubled water at graduation - which is essentially all i ever wanted, to sing with my best friends some sappy ass song while we wear ugly gowns in sweltering heat. since freshman year, it's what we wanted. and it wasn't really in the cards for us - so it's pretty sick that it's going to happen anyways.
life is okay. now if the realtors would get the fuck out of my house, i'll be good.