(no subject)
Recently, as of last night, I've come to realize that deep down inside, I am a VERY angry sort of female.
I've always been really proud of the fact that when it came to girls and their nasty catty bullshit, I managed to stay out of it. Girls talk, A LOT, and yes, it makes me want to punch them, but whatever, right? So I was always SO GOOD at ignoring all of that shit.
But then, somehow, it became very personal.
There's this girl at Kettering that wants Derek bad. Ok, whatever, they are friends supposedly, and that is honestly okay with me. Who am I to tell Derek she can't be his friend.
Then she tried to get on him at a party one time. (she knows about us, so there's really no excuse) So I let it go, at the request of my lovely. Because after all, he is with me, not her.
Then she was at sigma chi last night. She was all fake nice to my face, which is expected of the general female population, because fake is what we do best (most of us) and so I was like whatever it's good. THEN the little skeez (and yes, I am calling names because I am still SOOOO Fuckin HOT about this girl)
starts talking crap to one of the girls she was with. Now this part is hard to explain to most males, and I don't think Derek quite followed me.
Any girl can spot when another girl is talking crap about them to someone else right in front of them. The hand by the mouth, the nasty bitchy look in my direction in this case, come on, I'm not retarded or blind.
So, she wants to play it that way. That's definitely okay by me.
The problem I have is that women don't have ANY fucking respect for another girls relationship. NONE. When I am single I don't go traipsing after someone who is already in a relationship, and I CERTAINLY don't if that guy rejected me. Not only is she a shameless tramp but she obviously has no self respect. (I know I'm being an evil bitch but seriously, at least my vocabulary extends beyond insulting her outfit, hair, clothes, body etc etc.)
AHHHH. It's driving me nuts. I've never felt like that before. How do I feel, you ask? I want to fuck this girl's world up SO bad. I want to fucking drop her like a bad habit. And I could. And I would. And I hope she gives me the chance. (yes i'm being irrational, but I'm venting, and my livejournal doesn't judge.)
So anyways, blah blah blah bitch and moan etc. Yes, girls talk crap. I try not to. I don't consider this too much crap talking, (she started it hahahahaaa) because seriously, as much as Derek can't appreciate this, I have intent behind my words. There's going to be a point where she crosses a certain line with me, and I've got all this spare time to really build up all that rage.
It's not that I don't trust Derek. He's damn near beyond reproach. I don't know if I can explain this to him, but it does really bother me that he tries to talk me out of being upset at this girl. yes, he and I are together, not her and him. And that's great, and I'm grateful for that. He's the best.
But he tries to tell me I'm letting her get to me, and letting her come between us etc etc. Get to me, yes. Come between us, no, not so much. It bothers me that he wouldn't say something to this girl. Maybe it's not worth it to him, after all he's not the one she's totally disrespecting by the way she is acting. She HAS NOTHING to say bad about me. I never did ANYTHING to her. And yet, somehow it's ok for Derek to ignore the fact that she wants to chase after him like an idiot, and talk crap about me. Wonderful. Return to highschool, how I've missed it so.
You'd think he'd appreciate a woman who be willing to get a little shitty for someone she's in love with.
Besides, I've never been in a good solid fight, I think it could get interesting.
Why can't girls just leave us alone?
I've always been really proud of the fact that when it came to girls and their nasty catty bullshit, I managed to stay out of it. Girls talk, A LOT, and yes, it makes me want to punch them, but whatever, right? So I was always SO GOOD at ignoring all of that shit.
But then, somehow, it became very personal.
There's this girl at Kettering that wants Derek bad. Ok, whatever, they are friends supposedly, and that is honestly okay with me. Who am I to tell Derek she can't be his friend.
Then she tried to get on him at a party one time. (she knows about us, so there's really no excuse) So I let it go, at the request of my lovely. Because after all, he is with me, not her.
Then she was at sigma chi last night. She was all fake nice to my face, which is expected of the general female population, because fake is what we do best (most of us) and so I was like whatever it's good. THEN the little skeez (and yes, I am calling names because I am still SOOOO Fuckin HOT about this girl)
starts talking crap to one of the girls she was with. Now this part is hard to explain to most males, and I don't think Derek quite followed me.
Any girl can spot when another girl is talking crap about them to someone else right in front of them. The hand by the mouth, the nasty bitchy look in my direction in this case, come on, I'm not retarded or blind.
So, she wants to play it that way. That's definitely okay by me.
The problem I have is that women don't have ANY fucking respect for another girls relationship. NONE. When I am single I don't go traipsing after someone who is already in a relationship, and I CERTAINLY don't if that guy rejected me. Not only is she a shameless tramp but she obviously has no self respect. (I know I'm being an evil bitch but seriously, at least my vocabulary extends beyond insulting her outfit, hair, clothes, body etc etc.)
AHHHH. It's driving me nuts. I've never felt like that before. How do I feel, you ask? I want to fuck this girl's world up SO bad. I want to fucking drop her like a bad habit. And I could. And I would. And I hope she gives me the chance. (yes i'm being irrational, but I'm venting, and my livejournal doesn't judge.)
So anyways, blah blah blah bitch and moan etc. Yes, girls talk crap. I try not to. I don't consider this too much crap talking, (she started it hahahahaaa) because seriously, as much as Derek can't appreciate this, I have intent behind my words. There's going to be a point where she crosses a certain line with me, and I've got all this spare time to really build up all that rage.
It's not that I don't trust Derek. He's damn near beyond reproach. I don't know if I can explain this to him, but it does really bother me that he tries to talk me out of being upset at this girl. yes, he and I are together, not her and him. And that's great, and I'm grateful for that. He's the best.
But he tries to tell me I'm letting her get to me, and letting her come between us etc etc. Get to me, yes. Come between us, no, not so much. It bothers me that he wouldn't say something to this girl. Maybe it's not worth it to him, after all he's not the one she's totally disrespecting by the way she is acting. She HAS NOTHING to say bad about me. I never did ANYTHING to her. And yet, somehow it's ok for Derek to ignore the fact that she wants to chase after him like an idiot, and talk crap about me. Wonderful. Return to highschool, how I've missed it so.
You'd think he'd appreciate a woman who be willing to get a little shitty for someone she's in love with.
Besides, I've never been in a good solid fight, I think it could get interesting.
Why can't girls just leave us alone?