this might be a tad obvious, whatever
I was stalking around on facebook and came upon a picture that made me smile. Six months ago it wouldn't have made me smile, it would have made me be like ahhh!! And maybe I do still feel some of that, not because it is anything significant, but because I like to analyze things and dwell on them and never.move.on. But such is me. Love it or hate it. Anyway, looking at it, it just well, made me smile. And it's pretty amazing if you know me because smiling at it shows that I'm not crying over things that didn't work out (stop me I'm starting to annoy myself) Instead, I can just look back and laugh. I can't just wait for someone to be my hero and get upset when they're not, if they've never promised me they would be. I can't look for heroes in every interaction i have. Instead I can smile and laugh, and think, okay, that wasn't particularly wonderful or exemplary on anyone's part, but there were good things I felt, and damn it, those good things sure were fun while they lasted. Although there is probably dysfunction everywhere in life, there was something very pure and non-dysfunctional about this picture, and how I felt laughing at it. So there must have been something very pure in real life too, I think, even if it was fleeting, even if circumstance, in a dire straits lyrics-esque manner, and such precluded everything. Even if there was never an 'everything' or even anything to preclude, there was that second of something. And how amazing is it that I can look back now and think wow, whatever that was, for the minute it was, it was something.