I'M STILL ALIVE!
Okay...so let me tell ya about the past two weeks...it all started with me peeing out blood...but not just a little blood...LOTS....so much that I became really weak....I went into the ER and they just said I had a kidney infection...well, first they siad I had a URI....then when the meds didnt help an I became even worse and the tests came back negative...they put me on different meds for a kidney infection....finally the bleeding stopped for like three days, but I was feeling a lot of pressure in my lower back and bladder...this scared me, so I went back into the ER and they said I was fine...meanwhile, I'm missing work and school like crazy...and feling like shit...
A few days later...it was February 3rd...I just punch out of school....and go pee before I leave and there was SO much blood, so on my way back to Putnam I called out of work and went straight into the ER where they did absolutely nothing and sent me home at 6pm...my mom took off from work to be with me...we had some dinner and put on a movie...at like 8pm....all of a sudden...I was like, whoa cuz my right side of my lower back and side was killing me...I never felt this pain before...I went into the bathroom to get some aspirin and as I looked into the mirror...not only did my face turn white right infront of me, but my pupils grew and my eyes where completely black...my mom freaked and told me she was taking me to the ER and as I lay on the couch with my back arched....starring at the ceiling in pain I have never felt before I was like, "I dont think it can wait...call 911..." Waiting for the ambulance was insane...it was like 10 minutes, but felt like hours...I've been alive for almost 21 years and never saw my mom cry until that night...I cant even explain how crazy it was....It was like I was watching myself die right infront of her and there was nothing I could do about it and it hurt me even more that she was so upset...so I remained calm...didnt cry and kept telling her to relax and that I would be fine...it was such a crazy night...
I went to the Urologist today and I may have to have surgery on the 27th of February...but I am doing better...I'm on crazy-ass pain killers...and have like 100 refills and shit...it's crazy cuz you never think it will happen to you...and then it does...
I just want you all to know that I'm alive and I know I have not been talking to anyone cuz I have been so sick, but it is nothing personal...and when I get better I will be seeing everyone again...I just need time...
Things at my school are going GREAT though...I have only been there for a month ...actually, friday I just got a station on the floor and now I take customers and do hair on actual people...awesome huh? I get great tips...and I gave myself a french manicure and although I am having a hard time getting use to the long nails and I've been keeping up with waxing my brows and shit...they look really nice...it feels great to get all girly cuz I AM female...and it is nice to feel like one sometimes...
I miss everyone so much, but dont worry, my mom is taking good care of me...and guess what! My birthday is in 18 days!!!!
A few days later...it was February 3rd...I just punch out of school....and go pee before I leave and there was SO much blood, so on my way back to Putnam I called out of work and went straight into the ER where they did absolutely nothing and sent me home at 6pm...my mom took off from work to be with me...we had some dinner and put on a movie...at like 8pm....all of a sudden...I was like, whoa cuz my right side of my lower back and side was killing me...I never felt this pain before...I went into the bathroom to get some aspirin and as I looked into the mirror...not only did my face turn white right infront of me, but my pupils grew and my eyes where completely black...my mom freaked and told me she was taking me to the ER and as I lay on the couch with my back arched....starring at the ceiling in pain I have never felt before I was like, "I dont think it can wait...call 911..." Waiting for the ambulance was insane...it was like 10 minutes, but felt like hours...I've been alive for almost 21 years and never saw my mom cry until that night...I cant even explain how crazy it was....It was like I was watching myself die right infront of her and there was nothing I could do about it and it hurt me even more that she was so upset...so I remained calm...didnt cry and kept telling her to relax and that I would be fine...it was such a crazy night...
I went to the Urologist today and I may have to have surgery on the 27th of February...but I am doing better...I'm on crazy-ass pain killers...and have like 100 refills and shit...it's crazy cuz you never think it will happen to you...and then it does...
I just want you all to know that I'm alive and I know I have not been talking to anyone cuz I have been so sick, but it is nothing personal...and when I get better I will be seeing everyone again...I just need time...
Things at my school are going GREAT though...I have only been there for a month ...actually, friday I just got a station on the floor and now I take customers and do hair on actual people...awesome huh? I get great tips...and I gave myself a french manicure and although I am having a hard time getting use to the long nails and I've been keeping up with waxing my brows and shit...they look really nice...it feels great to get all girly cuz I AM female...and it is nice to feel like one sometimes...
I miss everyone so much, but dont worry, my mom is taking good care of me...and guess what! My birthday is in 18 days!!!!