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I feel so disconnected.
I made friends in middle school.
then I kept some of those into high school and made a few more freshman year.
those are the only people I talk to now.
none of the random kids I picked up along the way.
None of those people that all said I lovee you and will miss you so much and we will keep in touch and BFFS!, I don't talk to anyone of those people anymore. and I have only been in college for almost 2 weeks. What happens next summer? I am freaking out.
I don't want to go back to a world where everyone has different lives without the old people.
I miss those people.
I miss seeing people everyday.
I miss laughing in my classes and goofing off and now caring.
I am a different person here in K-Ville.
I miss high school friends.
I miss choir, and laughing and being an ass, and singing
I miss singing.
I miss piano.
I am taking a world music class, and I just want to take piano or voice lessons and actually be DOING and analyzing music not just being a class full of people who dont give a shit.
I miss my family. I have barely heard from them since I left. I am not a very homesick person, but I miss contact. I spend too much time on my computer hoping that someone misses me.
I don't want all of us to go our seperate ways and just forget about all the fun we had.
I want to be back in Champaign, back from "summer camp" and hang out with all of you.
just like w didn't do this summer.
I want life to work out like it does in the movies.
everyone stays friends, says what they mean, and life is perfect.
I wasn't homesick until I literally wrote all of this and then suddenly I want to go home and talk to my mom, and not have my sister be a day ahead of me in Africa, I want to eat home cooking, and always be a phone call and drive away from everyone I love.
I don't want everyone to move on. I love my friends here, but I want to still be friends with all the choir kids, govt kids, physics kids, band kids, softball kids, bio kids, random kids.
I don't want college to change everything.
I need to talk on the phone.
damn it.
Now I'm sitting in my room
my room mate is god knows where
crying.
wanting to go home tomorrow like everyone else.
but yet I know that if I went home, I would be disappointed.
shit.
I don't want life to be this complicated.
I made friends in middle school.
then I kept some of those into high school and made a few more freshman year.
those are the only people I talk to now.
none of the random kids I picked up along the way.
None of those people that all said I lovee you and will miss you so much and we will keep in touch and BFFS!, I don't talk to anyone of those people anymore. and I have only been in college for almost 2 weeks. What happens next summer? I am freaking out.
I don't want to go back to a world where everyone has different lives without the old people.
I miss those people.
I miss seeing people everyday.
I miss laughing in my classes and goofing off and now caring.
I am a different person here in K-Ville.
I miss high school friends.
I miss choir, and laughing and being an ass, and singing
I miss singing.
I miss piano.
I am taking a world music class, and I just want to take piano or voice lessons and actually be DOING and analyzing music not just being a class full of people who dont give a shit.
I miss my family. I have barely heard from them since I left. I am not a very homesick person, but I miss contact. I spend too much time on my computer hoping that someone misses me.
I don't want all of us to go our seperate ways and just forget about all the fun we had.
I want to be back in Champaign, back from "summer camp" and hang out with all of you.
just like w didn't do this summer.
I want life to work out like it does in the movies.
everyone stays friends, says what they mean, and life is perfect.
I wasn't homesick until I literally wrote all of this and then suddenly I want to go home and talk to my mom, and not have my sister be a day ahead of me in Africa, I want to eat home cooking, and always be a phone call and drive away from everyone I love.
I don't want everyone to move on. I love my friends here, but I want to still be friends with all the choir kids, govt kids, physics kids, band kids, softball kids, bio kids, random kids.
I don't want college to change everything.
I need to talk on the phone.
damn it.
Now I'm sitting in my room
my room mate is god knows where
crying.
wanting to go home tomorrow like everyone else.
but yet I know that if I went home, I would be disappointed.
shit.
I don't want life to be this complicated.