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[carriebou22]

this is crazy.

we are so close to being done
and yet
i dont feel it
i dont feel the yearning to be free to be done to be out of central
i just feel normal
and like this goodbye is going to suddenly hit me 
but by then it will be too late.
it hasnt hit me yet
that there are some people i will never see again
never talk to again
never
ever

and for some people
i feel like i shouldnt be able to contain my excitment
but yet
i dont feel excited
for anything
not for leaving
not for summer
not for graduation

i just feel kind of numb.
i think waiting for so long
has made me numb
and now i really dont care
i wouldnt care if i had 2 more weeks of school
because honestly 2 more weeks of school like this week
i could handle
i can handle movies, and goofing off, and having heart to hearts
its nice.

and its not even nice outside
i dont want my summer to start with shitty, rainy, no fun weather
i want fun in the sun, lets lay out weather.

but
i just love you all.
really
why are we all so amazing?