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my mom told me i couldnt go to london and fall in love with a british boy because then i would never come home, and then i would live in london and they would never see me.. haha
christmas was okay
i realized that i really dont enjoy christmas
i mean i love buying presents for people and making things
but then
i always feel like i didnt get exactly what i wanted..
i know that is selfish and spoiledish but this year..
with my mom being depressed
she didnt shop
so i thought i would just get cash
but she like bought things that were on clearence
that i didnt want
or need
this sounds terrible in words
i just feel so bad for my mom..
i know she is getting better and thats good
i feel like i shouldnt complain but i do..
i just always feel disappointed after opening all those pretty presents
i feel like people are never as excited as you thought they would be.
and i am never excited after its done
and its sad :(
stupid materilalistic side..
everyone is soo excited about what they got..and im like..well im going to go buy myself something that i wanted to make me happy.. :(
my mom did give me a scrapbook..
so i think i am going to spend my last few free days
scrapbooking :)
i just want to have fun on new years eve
and not be drinking
or have my friends be drinking..
ug.
this is what i hate about this year.
HJDFHJSDFHJFKLHJKL!JLHFJLSDFHJKLHJD@QT&*(^#Q&*$)UHFL:HJDAIL!
i guess this is how it will be next year..
i just wish i wasnt so left out..
i wish she didnt have this new group of friends
that i dont have
because i dont drink
damn.
christmas was okay
i realized that i really dont enjoy christmas
i mean i love buying presents for people and making things
but then
i always feel like i didnt get exactly what i wanted..
i know that is selfish and spoiledish but this year..
with my mom being depressed
she didnt shop
so i thought i would just get cash
but she like bought things that were on clearence
that i didnt want
or need
this sounds terrible in words
i just feel so bad for my mom..
i know she is getting better and thats good
i feel like i shouldnt complain but i do..
i just always feel disappointed after opening all those pretty presents
i feel like people are never as excited as you thought they would be.
and i am never excited after its done
and its sad :(
stupid materilalistic side..
everyone is soo excited about what they got..and im like..well im going to go buy myself something that i wanted to make me happy.. :(
my mom did give me a scrapbook..
so i think i am going to spend my last few free days
scrapbooking :)
i just want to have fun on new years eve
and not be drinking
or have my friends be drinking..
ug.
this is what i hate about this year.
HJDFHJSDFHJFKLHJKL!JLHFJLSDFHJKLHJD@QT&*(^#Q&*$)UHFL:HJDAIL!
i guess this is how it will be next year..
i just wish i wasnt so left out..
i wish she didnt have this new group of friends
that i dont have
because i dont drink
damn.