Oh, don't get me wrong...

[carrie_rapp]

I like the physical work of cleaning stalls and feeding horses(I do it along with giving lessons in exchange for board for my horse), but man....sometimes I wish I just had the money to board so I didn't have to worry about doing any of it.  There are like 3 or 4 people that clean stalls and feed horses and today we all got a mass email stating a couple ways to improve cleaning stalls.  Honestly, I haven't done my best in cleaning stalls.  I can.  I know how to do it well, but part of me doesn't want to do it at all.   The other part of me, however,  is grateful for this opportunity to have a horse and have board paid for.  It really isn't that much work, and part of me has this paranoid thought that I'm just going to be asked to leave.  The tone of that email was very open and clear, I just haven't really felt like cleaning stalls.   I guess though, I'll just have to buck up and spend a little more time with the stalls, because I don't have the money to pay for board outright, nor do I know of anyone else who might let me do something like this.  So yeah, I press on.

I have a job interview tomorrow, and if I get it, it will most likely affect my feeding/lessons/stall cleaning, something i already discussed with the barn owner.

Prayers/positive vibes are needed especially. :)