i proudly wear my heart on my sleeve...
yeah, so i did it.
i said it.
i started it off by asking jess what he thought about love. he asked me to clarify, so i said "using the words i love you"...he asked me what the difference between love and every other feeling was and i couldn't explain it to him...i felt so dumb. but i said it anyways.
"well, i think i love you."
and he in turn said that he really liked me, that he liked being with me, that he was happy we got together, and that i was a cool girl. he also told me that he has trouble "talking about feelings." and i dunno...other than being a little embarassed for wearing my heart on my sleeve, im ok. he didnt need to say it back (although my heart would have burst if he would've said it) because i saw in the way he looked at me tonight that he does love me...and that's what counts. anyone can say it but i know when i hear it from him there will be no question wether or not its true. he's the coolest guy i've ever met...
jess opens doors. he pays (although he doesnt have much money at all). he always has his arm around me. and its not a tight uncomfortable arm but a comforting and strong arm...he totally respects me and pays lots of attention to me. he gets along with everyone. he has great musical taste (and he's not a music snob). hes what i've always wanted. PLUS- hes amazing in bed and hes totally sexy. and what a good kisser! ...the list goes on and on.
so- what is love? why do i know that i love him? i have said it to other people...and said that i meant it. i meant it when i said it to connor although it was blind love- completely unattainable and fleeting. i said it to josh but i knew it wasnt true. but god damn, i wanted to mean it! i wanted to love him but i knew in my heart that we wouldn't stay together...i'm so glad we broke up.
me and jess have been dating for like 3 weeks on saturday. but i dont feel like i'm jumping the gun! we've known eachother for over a year now and i've always liked him...but now, the thought of him makes my heart warm. i wish i could've spent the night with him tonight. he's so comfortable.
well, enough of this for now. enough of my toil. will he ever say it? i dunno. but i must admit, i am a little sad and hurt. i thought for sure i'd hear it back.
i said it.
i started it off by asking jess what he thought about love. he asked me to clarify, so i said "using the words i love you"...he asked me what the difference between love and every other feeling was and i couldn't explain it to him...i felt so dumb. but i said it anyways.
"well, i think i love you."
and he in turn said that he really liked me, that he liked being with me, that he was happy we got together, and that i was a cool girl. he also told me that he has trouble "talking about feelings." and i dunno...other than being a little embarassed for wearing my heart on my sleeve, im ok. he didnt need to say it back (although my heart would have burst if he would've said it) because i saw in the way he looked at me tonight that he does love me...and that's what counts. anyone can say it but i know when i hear it from him there will be no question wether or not its true. he's the coolest guy i've ever met...
jess opens doors. he pays (although he doesnt have much money at all). he always has his arm around me. and its not a tight uncomfortable arm but a comforting and strong arm...he totally respects me and pays lots of attention to me. he gets along with everyone. he has great musical taste (and he's not a music snob). hes what i've always wanted. PLUS- hes amazing in bed and hes totally sexy. and what a good kisser! ...the list goes on and on.
so- what is love? why do i know that i love him? i have said it to other people...and said that i meant it. i meant it when i said it to connor although it was blind love- completely unattainable and fleeting. i said it to josh but i knew it wasnt true. but god damn, i wanted to mean it! i wanted to love him but i knew in my heart that we wouldn't stay together...i'm so glad we broke up.
me and jess have been dating for like 3 weeks on saturday. but i dont feel like i'm jumping the gun! we've known eachother for over a year now and i've always liked him...but now, the thought of him makes my heart warm. i wish i could've spent the night with him tonight. he's so comfortable.
well, enough of this for now. enough of my toil. will he ever say it? i dunno. but i must admit, i am a little sad and hurt. i thought for sure i'd hear it back.