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_ so that last entry, i feel very hypocritical for . idk no matter what that always bothered me. and no matter what chris thinks/thought ; i deffinately did not like someone the whole time...
with brendan it was like we talked that one night ; and continued talking and it was fun _ but i don't see him as a boyfriend or anything now.
and with ben; the first time i had seen or talked to him wasnt till fair day _ and of course he's cute and nice but he's most deff not bf material . he effing doesnt call or anything _ so i've decided to drop that one and unless he calls and wants to hang out im not putting the time in for it .
_ so pretty much i've given up on guys .
there's no doubt about it, i still love chris . and like mother said he's going to be in my heart a while well actually f o r e v e r <3. chris to let you know -
"i'd give it up for one more day with you ;
give it up give it all away . . . give it up for just one more day with you "
i wish we would talk again . . .
_ i slept with his shirt last night . and i'd bet you'd never guess i cried myself to sleep .
with brendan it was like we talked that one night ; and continued talking and it was fun _ but i don't see him as a boyfriend or anything now.
and with ben; the first time i had seen or talked to him wasnt till fair day _ and of course he's cute and nice but he's most deff not bf material . he effing doesnt call or anything _ so i've decided to drop that one and unless he calls and wants to hang out im not putting the time in for it .
_ so pretty much i've given up on guys .
there's no doubt about it, i still love chris . and like mother said he's going to be in my heart a while well actually f o r e v e r <3. chris to let you know -
"i'd give it up for one more day with you ;
give it up give it all away . . . give it up for just one more day with you "
i wish we would talk again . . .
_ i slept with his shirt last night . and i'd bet you'd never guess i cried myself to sleep .