It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah....
Let me see if I can say all this without crying...
My grandpa, on my dad's side, apparently had a tumor in his kidney, or some tube attached to the kidney. They found this out because of some operation on his bladder or something that he had today. The doctors have some test to run to see if they can just take the one kidney and tube out and he'll be fine. But, apparently he might be diabetic and some of the dyes they want to run might be hazardous to him or something so they have to be careful with that. And, if the tests show that both his kidneys are bad, they'll have to take them out and put him on dialysis. But, he's adamently against being put on dialysis....
So, I don't know what to think. I'm not close to him. I'm not really as close to my dad's family as I am to my mom's family. I'm closer to everyone else than my grandpa and grandma but it's still.... I don't know...
It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah.... Somehow I knew he'd end up dead, I just figured it would be from smoking.... And, I never thought it would be like this....
I can't stand it, because something inside me just wishes we had been closer. Part of me feels bad because I won't miss him as much as I miss Grandpa Sanborn. Part of me wishes he was still in perfect health. But then, part of me is glad that maybe it's his time. That this was the only way he'd stop smoking.
I'm just a mess.... what a way to celebrate having internet back to my computer... my first post is this....
My grandpa, on my dad's side, apparently had a tumor in his kidney, or some tube attached to the kidney. They found this out because of some operation on his bladder or something that he had today. The doctors have some test to run to see if they can just take the one kidney and tube out and he'll be fine. But, apparently he might be diabetic and some of the dyes they want to run might be hazardous to him or something so they have to be careful with that. And, if the tests show that both his kidneys are bad, they'll have to take them out and put him on dialysis. But, he's adamently against being put on dialysis....
So, I don't know what to think. I'm not close to him. I'm not really as close to my dad's family as I am to my mom's family. I'm closer to everyone else than my grandpa and grandma but it's still.... I don't know...
It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah.... Somehow I knew he'd end up dead, I just figured it would be from smoking.... And, I never thought it would be like this....
I can't stand it, because something inside me just wishes we had been closer. Part of me feels bad because I won't miss him as much as I miss Grandpa Sanborn. Part of me wishes he was still in perfect health. But then, part of me is glad that maybe it's his time. That this was the only way he'd stop smoking.
I'm just a mess.... what a way to celebrate having internet back to my computer... my first post is this....