relationships
have you ever felt like you're never going to find that one person that you're supposed to be with for the rest of your life? or that you've possibly known them, been with them, and missed the oppurtunity? after all the relationships i've had that have lasted anywhere from a month or two, up to a year and a half... they all seem in-consequencial anymore. everyone else seems to have found that one person, they're either engaged by now, married, or in a 3 or 4+ year relationship that is still going strong. so where is the one for me? all of these past relationships (except for the most recent one), i have no type of feelings left for, and i have no type of friendship or correspondance towards them. i wish i could find a girl, start a relationship with her, and actually for once have some type of security in her and the relationship. not have to worry about her cheating on me, being able to trust her 100%, being able to talk to her about everything, knowing that she's feeling the same things i am, knowing that she thinks i'm right for her, and that she's truely dedicated and devoted to the relationship, etc. i just want to be able to have that type of security in a relationship for once. i've never had that before, and that's the type of thing i want. i know i'm a lucky person, i have a lot of things to be thankful for, but shouldn't this be one of those things that i should get what i want. i'm not trying to sound selfish at all, but don't i deserve to get something like this that i should rightfully deserve. i've never hurt, cheated, lied to, abused, or yelled at a girl, so why do i always lose the relationships? is there something i'm doing wrong? or have i just not met her yet? anyone know of any nice girls that would fill this position for me, i'm taking applications now.
rant over, thanks for reading.
rant over, thanks for reading.