It was a weekend of some clarity.
This weekend I realize many a thing. And I've come up with some realizations. When you don't look for it, it comes to you. Stop caring. I know. I know. Trust me. It sucks, but this is where patience comes into play and is vital. Now, that is for relationship wise.
As far as a job is concerned. I do want a different job. I feel it might have been time for a change a while ago. I feel it's a bit lackluster. I mean I'm getting paid, but it's missing a certain I don't know what. Search and search I will. I mean I already have one opportunity that I am kind of psyched about, but I realized it just might not work out for now. I mean if I were to lose my job now it's a definite back up plan, but I feel it would be a temporary solution.
Saturday, I sat in with old friends that I haven't seen and been able to hang out with in about a few years. It was good. Relatively awkward in the beginning, but quite heartwarming at the end. I realized that I need to get in contact with these people more often for they are my roots. (Now, I don't want to stay in touch with all my roots. For I feel I have outgrown and become real indifferent about a handful of them. I will not water or feed those friendships, for all the good in them has come to past.)
Maybe what I just said makes me an asshole. But I assure you I'm not trying to be an asshole. I'm trying to prosper and live my life. And a lot of times the faces of the past begin to blur. It happens to everyone. So, before you pass judgment look at yourself.
Lastly, I realized I want my independence even more. I want my own place and I want it now. Ha ha. Saturday I was told about places costing $500 including water that made me say where do I sign. It looks quite alright to be honest. And I feel it's what I need, but I don't know how I am going to manage all the costs in my life. So, again I will need to wait for a little while till maybe somewhere in the middle of next year. I need to make more money while I'm going to a school I'm paying for and not to mention all the other crap I will be paying for. (ie: Car, bills, gear, computer, etc...) But believe you me. It will happen. It will.
As far as a job is concerned. I do want a different job. I feel it might have been time for a change a while ago. I feel it's a bit lackluster. I mean I'm getting paid, but it's missing a certain I don't know what. Search and search I will. I mean I already have one opportunity that I am kind of psyched about, but I realized it just might not work out for now. I mean if I were to lose my job now it's a definite back up plan, but I feel it would be a temporary solution.
Saturday, I sat in with old friends that I haven't seen and been able to hang out with in about a few years. It was good. Relatively awkward in the beginning, but quite heartwarming at the end. I realized that I need to get in contact with these people more often for they are my roots. (Now, I don't want to stay in touch with all my roots. For I feel I have outgrown and become real indifferent about a handful of them. I will not water or feed those friendships, for all the good in them has come to past.)
Maybe what I just said makes me an asshole. But I assure you I'm not trying to be an asshole. I'm trying to prosper and live my life. And a lot of times the faces of the past begin to blur. It happens to everyone. So, before you pass judgment look at yourself.
Lastly, I realized I want my independence even more. I want my own place and I want it now. Ha ha. Saturday I was told about places costing $500 including water that made me say where do I sign. It looks quite alright to be honest. And I feel it's what I need, but I don't know how I am going to manage all the costs in my life. So, again I will need to wait for a little while till maybe somewhere in the middle of next year. I need to make more money while I'm going to a school I'm paying for and not to mention all the other crap I will be paying for. (ie: Car, bills, gear, computer, etc...) But believe you me. It will happen. It will.