Does it kill, Does it burn, is it painful to learn that its ME who has all the control
Yep life is on one of those plateaus where you really dont give 2 shits about anything anymore. Me and Melanie crashed and burned just like I knew we would. It's so scary to me because I'm reverting right back to the person I've tried for 1 and 1/2 years to change from, but oh well things happen I guess. I was so close to, I swear on my life that I'll never fall in love again. I've discovered the true meaning of Love is just a word that ignorant naive people use to make themselves belive that they are something special to eachother anyway I'd like to get off that subject. I got my licence's now and I drive a ugly ass red chevy pick up truck. I've got a new girlfriend if thats what I should call her, her name is Malia and she goes to hazel park, she's really hott. I dont know though I think my feelings for her are half sexual attraction and half me trying to get over Melanie, but oh well me and Melanie started out that way when I was trying to get over Stacie and I ended up falling head over heels in love with her. Who knows what can happen in the future
My job takes up most of my free time theses days. Thank God I dont think I'd be to healthy right now if I sat around all day with this shit on my mind. I like my job, I really do, It keeps my mind off everything. There's so much bullshit floating around I'm really sick of it idk anymore I just need a drink I think. I'm so diffrent and its terrible that I'm the old me but I dont know I guess its all just closing now and thats it. I dont know guys its looking pretty bad right about now I dont know if I'm gonna make it through this summer. This years over now the trial is over and we surived now its time for the really tough one. Summer is when all things are wrapped up and they all come to a close. The point of no return is coming up real quick and its scaring because I'm not sure what I'm gonna do when that time comes. Oh well I guess I'll just have to wait and see. Summer I keep talking about Summer its so terrible I hate Summer so much because all it means for me is Drinking and smoking everynight, messing around with girls I barley even fucking know. I really hoped that me and Melanie would last through the summer so I wouldnt have to deal with the terrible feeling of waking up with a splitting head ache half naked next to a girl that my heart is empty for. This is the end guys its really then end I can feel it now its just way to much I don't exactly know what I'm gonna do, or when I'm gonna do it but when the time comes when I do have to leave in one way or another, I hope that I'm not to quick forgotten by my friends cuz I know I wouldnt forget you guys anyway I dont know anymore I really dont but anyway i'm gonna go so bye
My job takes up most of my free time theses days. Thank God I dont think I'd be to healthy right now if I sat around all day with this shit on my mind. I like my job, I really do, It keeps my mind off everything. There's so much bullshit floating around I'm really sick of it idk anymore I just need a drink I think. I'm so diffrent and its terrible that I'm the old me but I dont know I guess its all just closing now and thats it. I dont know guys its looking pretty bad right about now I dont know if I'm gonna make it through this summer. This years over now the trial is over and we surived now its time for the really tough one. Summer is when all things are wrapped up and they all come to a close. The point of no return is coming up real quick and its scaring because I'm not sure what I'm gonna do when that time comes. Oh well I guess I'll just have to wait and see. Summer I keep talking about Summer its so terrible I hate Summer so much because all it means for me is Drinking and smoking everynight, messing around with girls I barley even fucking know. I really hoped that me and Melanie would last through the summer so I wouldnt have to deal with the terrible feeling of waking up with a splitting head ache half naked next to a girl that my heart is empty for. This is the end guys its really then end I can feel it now its just way to much I don't exactly know what I'm gonna do, or when I'm gonna do it but when the time comes when I do have to leave in one way or another, I hope that I'm not to quick forgotten by my friends cuz I know I wouldnt forget you guys anyway I dont know anymore I really dont but anyway i'm gonna go so bye