That frankly will not fly...(judy)

[carpediem9786]

I'm so puzzled, but not mad anymore. I'm not angry or bitter at all, as of this moment. It's really great...for now. You know how guys are very simple and have everything pretty much figured out in a flash and girls are so complicated and take FOREVER to make a decision about something? Well, I don't know why, but it isn't going that way, and it really has never gone that way, come to think of it. I have always had us figured out, it is so black and white to me, yes or no, up or down, this or that. Pick one, dammit. And he has always been the complicated one. Not able to make up his mind and acting like a damn woman all the time. I realized that tonight, for some reason. People think that things are so complicated in life and that they are harder than they really are, but I think that sometimes people need to step back from what they are going through and look at it. If you love someone, and they love you back, you're not going to just stop talking to them. It doesn't make any logical sense. But, I've stepped back and I see that when you care about and love someone and they feel the same way back, no matter how damn stubborn they can be, you should be together. I guess that's why I have always been frustrated, I can see that and he can't...because he's a girl. At least I'm not a teenager filled with angst about this, but if someone needed me to be, I could in a flash.

This break has been awesome and having these auditions has made me see some things...I still have one coming up on Friday and I'm nervous about it, but there's no sense in letting my nerves get to me until they have to. After Friday I get to enjoy my life and do things that I really want...oh, what rewards. :-D