Self image?
"Dorothy moves
To click her ruby shoes
Right in tune
With Dark Side of the Moon
Someone someone could tell me
Where I belong
Be calm
Be brave
It'll be ok"-Guster
I'm not unhappy, more unsteady I guess if you can call that a human emotion. I get so exhausted at the end of the day and then I get up and do it all over again. It's like a snow ball effect the more I roll the more I pick up more snow. I'm just getting too heavy. I've gotten really good at putting on a smile, and working to keep everything smooth. I'm so afraid that I'm going slip up they'll loss interest in me and change focus to someone better.
"Christy, I this is your problem. You think you're ugly and that's what you present to us through your body language. Men you agree with me right she is beautiful." there where some awkward nods through out the class. i could feel heat fill my face. "Look, Dr. SoRelle I don't think I'm ugly." she brushed off my comment and proceeded to have me stand on a box reach to the ceiling and spin in front of the class.
I know I'm pretty, but that class made me doubt that. I hate the idea that people see me as an awkward girl with a self image problem. That's not me anymore or at least I hope it's not.
I'm going into Austin and more importantly out of Waco on Wednesday.
"if so, you should walk with me. feel free to hold my hand. feel free to kiss me on the cheek even though i'd prefer the lips. hey i think you're groovy. would you wanna see a movie with me? we can sit in uncomfortable seats and eventually. i'll get the nerve up to put my arm around you. can i put my arms around you? 'cause i'd sure like to. it'll be like an episode of boy meets world. except without the commercials"-Back Seat Goodbye
To click her ruby shoes
Right in tune
With Dark Side of the Moon
Someone someone could tell me
Where I belong
Be calm
Be brave
It'll be ok"-Guster
I'm not unhappy, more unsteady I guess if you can call that a human emotion. I get so exhausted at the end of the day and then I get up and do it all over again. It's like a snow ball effect the more I roll the more I pick up more snow. I'm just getting too heavy. I've gotten really good at putting on a smile, and working to keep everything smooth. I'm so afraid that I'm going slip up they'll loss interest in me and change focus to someone better.
"Christy, I this is your problem. You think you're ugly and that's what you present to us through your body language. Men you agree with me right she is beautiful." there where some awkward nods through out the class. i could feel heat fill my face. "Look, Dr. SoRelle I don't think I'm ugly." she brushed off my comment and proceeded to have me stand on a box reach to the ceiling and spin in front of the class.
I know I'm pretty, but that class made me doubt that. I hate the idea that people see me as an awkward girl with a self image problem. That's not me anymore or at least I hope it's not.
I'm going into Austin and more importantly out of Waco on Wednesday.
"if so, you should walk with me. feel free to hold my hand. feel free to kiss me on the cheek even though i'd prefer the lips. hey i think you're groovy. would you wanna see a movie with me? we can sit in uncomfortable seats and eventually. i'll get the nerve up to put my arm around you. can i put my arms around you? 'cause i'd sure like to. it'll be like an episode of boy meets world. except without the commercials"-Back Seat Goodbye