Dilemmas.
This was definately too much to handle at this point. Seeing Landok standing in the lobby filled me with that kinda feeling you get when you know everything in your life is going to fall to pieces. We had just finished getting through the entire ordeal with Cordy, and that was draining on me enough as it is. And now learning that my mother is dying
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I felt bad. The pangs of losing a parent never seem to be easy. It's been 200 plus years and it still stings for me.
I went to go sit beside him. The least I could do was be there for him. I slid my arm around his back, put my other hand on his knee. "You take your time," I told him, quietly, reaching up to touch his face.
My words were detached, somewhat lacking weight when I spoke them. I couldn't seem to wrap my mind around this entire situation. Something, I couldn't tell what exactly - wasn't right about it. I felt something in Landok's voice and in his presence that was off. Plainly, I didn't trust him.
Lorne, being the one with the prescience, should have been able to pick up on something awry if it were really there, right? But then again, if his emotions were in turmoil, perhaps he wouldn't be able to pick up on anything. Maybe Landok knew this and used it to his advantage. Or maybe, i'm just being paranoid.
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Nia sat down beside me, and I was grateful for her being there. Grateful that, if she wasn't, I wouldn't know what to do. I leaned over and rested my head on her shoulder, and she enveloped me in a comforting embrace. "I could have been a better son," I said quietly. She held onto me as though I were a small child. It made me feel safe and warm.
"Maybe then she would have accepted me."
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I ran my fingers into his hair and smiled. "Didn't you tell me, that the last time you came back from Pylea, that you knew that going back there was just proof to you that you didn't belong there?" I asked him. "I know that you know that you were destined for bigger and better things, things which you would never have found in Pylea. So don't let Landok's talk about removing shame and guilt from your family get to you. I love you unconditionally, even if they don't."
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I always continue to mull this over in my head, having to justify my coming here over and over again. I was different, and I was the only one in Pylea who could see the forest through the trees. Of course I didn't belong there. So why all this talk of making my mother happy? I guess I didn't know. It only seemed right to have regrets at a time like this.
I heaved a sigh and lifted my head from Nia's shoulder. I looked into her eyes and gav a small smile. "You're right, Pumpkin," I said quietly. Leaning forward, I kissed her gently on the cheek. "Thank you," I whispered in her ear.
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It was a big decision to make, I understood that much. If he did decide to go back, hopefully it would be on his own terms and for his own reasons, not for the reasons that Landok had wanted. If he was to make amends before his mother died, then hopefully the amends he would make would be with himself. He had to make peace with his own mind and know that leaving was the best choice he could have ever made.
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Without another word, I got up and started walking towards the other end of the lobby. I stopped firstly, at the couches infront of Wesley's office. "Since when did Angel become narcoleptic?" I asked as I peered at sleping beauty, eyebrow perked. I shrugged my shoulder and continued to walk out the side door and into the garage where the cars were parked.
Angel's GTX was parked in the darkest corner, and Wesley's old motorbike was collecting dust against the wall. I looked at Nia and shrugged. "Think Angel would mind if we borrowed his car for awhile?"
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She kicked up the kickstand, and fired the bike into gear. We tore out of the parking garage and into broad daylight, swiftly merging into traffic and making our way down the freeway to our intended destination.
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