keeping it in
i keep a lot inside. i'm glad to be seeing a therapist because i don't know who to open up to. sadly, there's nobody in my personal life i feel i can talk to. either because i don't want to burden them (which doesn't really work, they're burdened by my silence but constant crying anyway) or it just doesn't seem appropriate to talk to them about it, or i've already talked about it and we both know they're sick of hearing it, or it's about something that's my own fault and i don't see how it would be anything but irritating to the other person for me to keep whining about how i ruined myself, or blah blah blah. so i don't tell anybody, and i'm fucking losing it.