long time
This livejounal used to such a hype. This how we stayed in touch.
Now who do I stay in touch with?
Really not very many people. I break dates and I say I'll show up and I never do. I'm kinda bad friend. I have a lot on my plate, even though I seem to sit around and think about what I should do with myself for the day...I just don't know.
15 weeks ago is such a long time, I don't even know where to start. I'm not in school this semester. I've actually moved back to Grand Haven. Away from a life I loved in Sault Ste. Marie. I loved that life, but that parts that meant so much to me were gone and I knew I would never get them back, so instead of making each day worse and worse...I left with those happy thoughts in my mind. Most days I think I made a mistake. Most days I wish I knew what I wanted out of life and knew where I was headed, but I don't know and so far in my life wishing hasn't made anything good happen.
So...I'm in Grand Haven. I'm dating a guy I went to High School with...it's going okay. I wish I knew for sure what was going to happen with us, but I don't. There I go with that wishing stuff again. There's this song that's been stuck in my head and I can't get it out so I'm gonna post the lyrics b/c that's all I can do for now.
I haven't forgot yet. It makes life hard sometimes.
People say she's only in my head It’s gonna take time but I’ll forget They say I need to get on with my life But they don't realize When you're dialing six numbers just to hang up the phone Drivin across town just to see if she’s home Wakin' a friend in the dead of night Just to hear him say its gonna be alright When you findin' things to do not to fall asleep Cuz you know she’ll be there in your dreams That’s when she's more than a memory Took a match to everything she ever wrote Watched her words go up in smoke Tore all her pictures off the wall That ain't helping me at all Cuz when you're talkin' out loud and nobody’s there You look like hell and ya just don’t care Drinkin' more than ya ever drank Sinkin' down lower than ya ever sank When ya find ya self fallin' down upon your knees Prayin to God, beggin' him please That’s when she’s more than a memory She’s more She's more Cuz when you're dialing her number just to hang up the phone Drivin across town just to see if she’s home Wakin a friend in the dead of night Just to hear him say it’s gonna be alright When you’re findin thing to do not to fall asleep Cuz you know she’s waiting in your dreams That’s when she’s more than a memory People say she’s only in my head It’s gonna take time but I’ll forget
Now who do I stay in touch with?
Really not very many people. I break dates and I say I'll show up and I never do. I'm kinda bad friend. I have a lot on my plate, even though I seem to sit around and think about what I should do with myself for the day...I just don't know.
15 weeks ago is such a long time, I don't even know where to start. I'm not in school this semester. I've actually moved back to Grand Haven. Away from a life I loved in Sault Ste. Marie. I loved that life, but that parts that meant so much to me were gone and I knew I would never get them back, so instead of making each day worse and worse...I left with those happy thoughts in my mind. Most days I think I made a mistake. Most days I wish I knew what I wanted out of life and knew where I was headed, but I don't know and so far in my life wishing hasn't made anything good happen.
So...I'm in Grand Haven. I'm dating a guy I went to High School with...it's going okay. I wish I knew for sure what was going to happen with us, but I don't. There I go with that wishing stuff again. There's this song that's been stuck in my head and I can't get it out so I'm gonna post the lyrics b/c that's all I can do for now.
I haven't forgot yet. It makes life hard sometimes.
People say she's only in my head It’s gonna take time but I’ll forget They say I need to get on with my life But they don't realize When you're dialing six numbers just to hang up the phone Drivin across town just to see if she’s home Wakin' a friend in the dead of night Just to hear him say its gonna be alright When you findin' things to do not to fall asleep Cuz you know she’ll be there in your dreams That’s when she's more than a memory Took a match to everything she ever wrote Watched her words go up in smoke Tore all her pictures off the wall That ain't helping me at all Cuz when you're talkin' out loud and nobody’s there You look like hell and ya just don’t care Drinkin' more than ya ever drank Sinkin' down lower than ya ever sank When ya find ya self fallin' down upon your knees Prayin to God, beggin' him please That’s when she’s more than a memory She’s more She's more Cuz when you're dialing her number just to hang up the phone Drivin across town just to see if she’s home Wakin a friend in the dead of night Just to hear him say it’s gonna be alright When you’re findin thing to do not to fall asleep Cuz you know she’s waiting in your dreams That’s when she’s more than a memory People say she’s only in my head It’s gonna take time but I’ll forget