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it's such a weird feeling that i'm actually leaving. i have to take everything--there's no chance of forgetting something and simply coming back home on a day off or something to pick it up. i'm actually going and not coming back until december. that's a really weird feeling. my flight's at fucking 7 am so i should probably go to bed, but i have that horrible feeling that i'm forgetting something.
i honestly don't know if i'm ready for this. i have always wanted to go to college and get away from my insanely controlling parents, but what if i make a wrong decision and completely fuck up my life? what if i can't handle the work? am i going to crack under the pressure? can i still go to a school if i flunk out? what if i can't make any friends? aaaah, really bad thoughts to be having the night before i leave.
fuck i hope it's going to be okay. and i hope i don't die on this backpacking trip. fucking 7 days in 7000-12000 ft. elevation. i've never been up that high. and i'm so bloody out of shape. fuck.
anyway i'll keep in touch. feel free to call me and i'll see you in december.
i honestly don't know if i'm ready for this. i have always wanted to go to college and get away from my insanely controlling parents, but what if i make a wrong decision and completely fuck up my life? what if i can't handle the work? am i going to crack under the pressure? can i still go to a school if i flunk out? what if i can't make any friends? aaaah, really bad thoughts to be having the night before i leave.
fuck i hope it's going to be okay. and i hope i don't die on this backpacking trip. fucking 7 days in 7000-12000 ft. elevation. i've never been up that high. and i'm so bloody out of shape. fuck.
anyway i'll keep in touch. feel free to call me and i'll see you in december.