no battle is ever won

[carpdeus]

....no battle is ever won...they are not even fought. The field only reveals to man his own folly and despair, and Victory is an illusion of philosophers and fools.
William Faulkner The Sound and the Fury

How true this is. I thought I coudl be victorious in so many things but I was wrong. I thought I could juggle my lies and keep the plates spinning but I realize that is a lie.