Do I really get excited over something so stupid?
After two non-dates....
After two long conversations about everything and nothing.
He winks.
Winking is not a big deal.
People who have the ability to do it probably wink a thousand times a day. If I didn't look like a retard with a twitch when I tried it, I'd probably do it more often.
But he did it in my direction.
And it got me excited. Though it was probably because the man in front of e seemed so excited to be at Starbucks (he got 5 drinks and a few pastries with more enthusiasm than I've ever seen in my life). Still. It was in my direction?
No reason to get excited. If I'm lucky his shift isn't over till 3 (which is probably unlikely. He probably opened). But then... I'm too chickenshit to even say hello. For some reason, I can't approach him. He approaching me? Sure. Not a problem. That gives me time to breathe and think before he starts to ask a question (he probably thinks I'm a retard because I take time answering questions).
But you know what's good about this? I've forgotten about my little army man (well, almost). I don't find myself thinking about him or going to text him. I haven't tried contacting Joel all that much either, but I don't want to get attached...
Nor do I want to go to Modern.
I want to sit at Starbucks.
Five bucks says he's exactly like Croft. In a relationship. Ready to settle down. Still looks at people. Will probably show me his engagement ring before I can say anything to him. It's happened before.
Croft only knew my name because I filled out an application. Joel only knows my name because he actually looks a my name when he punches in partner numbers.
After two long conversations about everything and nothing.
He winks.
Winking is not a big deal.
People who have the ability to do it probably wink a thousand times a day. If I didn't look like a retard with a twitch when I tried it, I'd probably do it more often.
But he did it in my direction.
And it got me excited. Though it was probably because the man in front of e seemed so excited to be at Starbucks (he got 5 drinks and a few pastries with more enthusiasm than I've ever seen in my life). Still. It was in my direction?
No reason to get excited. If I'm lucky his shift isn't over till 3 (which is probably unlikely. He probably opened). But then... I'm too chickenshit to even say hello. For some reason, I can't approach him. He approaching me? Sure. Not a problem. That gives me time to breathe and think before he starts to ask a question (he probably thinks I'm a retard because I take time answering questions).
But you know what's good about this? I've forgotten about my little army man (well, almost). I don't find myself thinking about him or going to text him. I haven't tried contacting Joel all that much either, but I don't want to get attached...
Nor do I want to go to Modern.
I want to sit at Starbucks.
Five bucks says he's exactly like Croft. In a relationship. Ready to settle down. Still looks at people. Will probably show me his engagement ring before I can say anything to him. It's happened before.
Croft only knew my name because I filled out an application. Joel only knows my name because he actually looks a my name when he punches in partner numbers.