hokay, so
apparently, sometimes people just have bad days, even in australia. and apparently, they eventually get better, even in america. so i will stay here for a little while, i guess, despite the crappiness described in my previous post.
sylvia staged an intervention of some sort. she is really quite good at that, and it helped a lot. it involved hugging, and "pulling" a bath for me, as she inexplicably calls it, and even though it doesn't make it better, it does motivate me to keep on trying, for her. because she is all wonderful, and for her i will do anything at all to make it better. see, she loves me even if i fail and am sad, plus is happy when i succeed because she cares about my happiness. this is enough to motivate anyone to keep on keeping on.
and then i got this email from ludger, after i responded to his scary sounding email:
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Dear Carolina,
do not snatch defeat out of the jaws of victory (did I get this
right)? Since you handed in your draft all is just peachy. There is a
huge difference between a missing draft and no communication and a
draft that is missing some pages (he says appealing to models of
analytic philosophy).
Let me know if I can be of any help.
Best,
LV
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not only encouraging, but also charming in his reference to a phrase i had introduced him to (much to his apparent delight) a few months ago. so maybe i will not give up on everything entirely but will try to focus on snatching victory from the jaws of defeat rather than the (more comical but less pleasant) other way around.
sylvia staged an intervention of some sort. she is really quite good at that, and it helped a lot. it involved hugging, and "pulling" a bath for me, as she inexplicably calls it, and even though it doesn't make it better, it does motivate me to keep on trying, for her. because she is all wonderful, and for her i will do anything at all to make it better. see, she loves me even if i fail and am sad, plus is happy when i succeed because she cares about my happiness. this is enough to motivate anyone to keep on keeping on.
and then i got this email from ludger, after i responded to his scary sounding email:
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Dear Carolina,
do not snatch defeat out of the jaws of victory (did I get this
right)? Since you handed in your draft all is just peachy. There is a
huge difference between a missing draft and no communication and a
draft that is missing some pages (he says appealing to models of
analytic philosophy).
Let me know if I can be of any help.
Best,
LV
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not only encouraging, but also charming in his reference to a phrase i had introduced him to (much to his apparent delight) a few months ago. so maybe i will not give up on everything entirely but will try to focus on snatching victory from the jaws of defeat rather than the (more comical but less pleasant) other way around.