the curse
every year on valentine's day, something awful happens. There were years, i suppose, that the worst thing that happened was that i was alone. Then there was the bad V day with Ryan, the next year i got stood up, last year i got into a car accident, and yesterday....i lost my voice (which sucks when you sing for a living) but also one of my client's mom's backed into my car. i was parked in the driveway, she was backing out of the garage and she swears she never saw it. awesome. i'm about to drive all the way across the country and my car is having a rough time. Also, i'm stressed and depressed, mostly because i have no idea what i will do when i get back to VA. i guess i was dumb enough to think that having a college degree meant never having to be jobless. There's zillions of things i WANT to do, but i don't know how to go about being a preschool teacher when my degree is in something completely different. With the state of Stafford's lack of caring and funding for special ed, i doubt i could get a job with them, so i dont' know....do i send in my applications to henrico and winchester co. schools and just wait and find a temporary job until fall (IF i got hired by either school system)? or do i look for something semi-permanent as soon as i get back home? I know that the primary thing i'll be doing and what will navigate my immediate job searches will be taking care of mom and being available to take/pick up john from school.
as much as i love ALL of my friends who are married/engaged...it kind of depresses me as well. i'm 10000000% happy for their happiness, but i can't even keep the good ones when i find them.
ok enough ranting.
as much as i love ALL of my friends who are married/engaged...it kind of depresses me as well. i'm 10000000% happy for their happiness, but i can't even keep the good ones when i find them.
ok enough ranting.