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I don't want to be in college. I don't want to go to class, there's nothing here that I care about. There's nothing that I care about at all, really. I don't really want to go to a proper university and study things. I don't want to get a part-time job, I don't want to do much aside from hang around with my friends and sleep. I think this is called being a teenager, and why is it coming up now suddenly? It needs to stop. I was so ambitious in high school, and now I'm slowly coming to the realization that I want very little, and I don't really want to make a lot of money or be especially successful or famous.
Honestly, though, I think that what I want is a steady job, a flat, and Internet access. When I'm not with Kent the prospect of marriage and children scares the fuck out of me (well, even when I am with him it's still utterly creepy). I should just get my lab tech certification. I'd have a job, at least, and it wouldn't take long. I could dream about how I wanted to be an artist or a doctor or something, all the while knowing that I have neither the talent nor the ambition. I could stop wasting my time.
Honestly, though, I think that what I want is a steady job, a flat, and Internet access. When I'm not with Kent the prospect of marriage and children scares the fuck out of me (well, even when I am with him it's still utterly creepy). I should just get my lab tech certification. I'd have a job, at least, and it wouldn't take long. I could dream about how I wanted to be an artist or a doctor or something, all the while knowing that I have neither the talent nor the ambition. I could stop wasting my time.