you can learn so much by helping the kids
so i'm sitting here today after deciding to take the weekend off from work bc almost getting arrested for soliciting kinda freaked me out. my ankle is killing me, my nose and chest is still burning a little from the sun the past 2 days, and my allergies are acting up.
i should be sleeping still. probably only like 6 hours of sleep last night, like every night. it's nothing really to worry about not being able to sleep today. it's is 90 something degrees outside and i don't have the air on. I really need a new filter.
i'm going out once i can peel myself off the couch to send my first check to pay for my mistakes. the mistakes that I thought in the end lead to the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. yes, i got the greatest opportunity ever slapped right in front of me to basically start my life over but how easy is that? I was all for it, things were amazing but like I always do i find the evil in everything.
i'm getting to know people at work and we're sharing stores of life, love, happiness, and even going to war. the mix in the office is amazing. but i realize i can't open up to these people. i can't share with them the real me. yes, there are details of my life that i share but nothing that really gives you any idea on how i really am. at times i tell my stores and somehow they end up coming straight from the heart and i tear up, excuse myself, and it's over.
staying at the job makes my life completely different and makes me feel like life is starting over again but i'm not completely sure if i want to let go of the past or this is the direction i really want to move in.
i should be sleeping still. probably only like 6 hours of sleep last night, like every night. it's nothing really to worry about not being able to sleep today. it's is 90 something degrees outside and i don't have the air on. I really need a new filter.
i'm going out once i can peel myself off the couch to send my first check to pay for my mistakes. the mistakes that I thought in the end lead to the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. yes, i got the greatest opportunity ever slapped right in front of me to basically start my life over but how easy is that? I was all for it, things were amazing but like I always do i find the evil in everything.
i'm getting to know people at work and we're sharing stores of life, love, happiness, and even going to war. the mix in the office is amazing. but i realize i can't open up to these people. i can't share with them the real me. yes, there are details of my life that i share but nothing that really gives you any idea on how i really am. at times i tell my stores and somehow they end up coming straight from the heart and i tear up, excuse myself, and it's over.
staying at the job makes my life completely different and makes me feel like life is starting over again but i'm not completely sure if i want to let go of the past or this is the direction i really want to move in.