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im sitting home alone with no money and no food. all because i was trying to be a good friend to donna. now im hungry as fuck and lonely and really just pissed off. you think you need cheering up? try hearing your best friend and the other person you care the most about hate you? so imagine being betrayed, lonely, hungry, sad, angry, at the same time. i really just hate everything right now. im not one to hold grudges but everyones making even fucking harder for me to not flip out on them. i hated jmar but sucked it up, i give up all my money to hang out with my friends, i listen to them cry to me at all hours of the night, i do my best to cheer them up. but no one day they find a better friend and im gone. this is a fucking headache i dont want or need. ed will be here tomorrow night. at least i have him and sean. really my life isnt too bad, im just sick of everyone being depressed when they have no reason to be and i wish they would all realize they should be grateful. like im sitting here alone starving but im not going to let it ruin my day. i really just wish i could be with joel derek and anthony right now. i miss them. well not derek because i spent the whole weekend with him. today is such an important day but now il never know the truth and even if i find out anyway it will be too late. well this was enough ranting im going go for a run before it starts to rain.