I'm probably a creep and here's why :p
Not as a person, mind you-I have no idea who that bloke is and never ever saw behind his public persona.
I realised though, when pinning images of him, when tirelessly re-blogging pics of him on my tumblr, I mainly adore the Tom Hiddleston of pre 2012.
I love blond, curly, arrogant Oakley but also clueless, sweet Bill Hazledine. I find William Buxton adorable as I find John Plumptre irresistible. I wouldn't kick sullen Magnus Martinsson or aimless, indecisive Edward out of my bed if I were to ever find them there. I am in awe with his vulnerable, sweet Loki, the one who stole Chris Hemsworth's show in Kenneth Branagh's Thor. I worship his eyebrows!
Megalomaniac, grinning Loki of The Avengers with his receding hairline I am already less in love with, although I liked Thor 2's Loki. I have issues with how Tom Hiddleston crafted his performance in The Deep Blue Sea as Freddie Page but maybe it's also because I'm not exactly fond of his look here. I am not into Coriolanus (and his performance didn't impress me either) nor was I much into Leonine!Tom in Henry VI, although Prince Hal with his blond locks wasn't bad I suppose.
Basically I don't seem to be able to like older, present-day Tom Hiddleston. I have no idea how to rectify this, but really all the recent pics of him do nothing for me although I coo immediately like a besotted seagull when I see images of curly-haired 20 yr old Tom! (HOW CUTE WAS OAKLEY!TOM?)
This is not entirely limited to Hiddleston. I have the same issues with Hugh Dancy, who was male perfection up until he was around 30, modelling and pouting for Burberry. I do like his Will Graham but his red carpet pics from 2012 onwards are quite meh.
Lee Pace to me was perfect in Pushing Daisies, all soft lips and huge eyes, and of course he's absolutely perfect in the Hobbit movies, and an absolute revelation in 2006's The Fall with his bandit costume and his black eyeliner, but I can't really see much in him in Halt And Catch Fire.
NOW TO RL!!!
I caught myself looking at The Beau and contemplating dragging him to a skin clinic where he can get some sort of eye lift or laser treatment. (IDK is this a good birthday present or will I end up a divorcee?) He's five years younger than I am and has already lots of wrinkles around the eyes and dark spots and whatnot.
Also, I am miffed that I am paying his gym membership and he's not going! I didn't get him a membership for nothing, and when I got it for him, I did tell him, that I like beaus with abs.
I do not even respond to OKC cupid messages of beaus over 35 which would be fine if I were 16 or so, but I am 42!
I don't need to ask "WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?" as I know perfectly well what is wrong with me, thank you very much, but I would like to find the inner strength to want to better myself. I'd like to develop the willpower to stop liking young beaus, really, and become a person who values IDK inner values or such.
ALAS.