LATER
so last night was horrible. i went to sleep with the sound of ashley's crying and woke up to her in tears in her bathtub drenched in water. i couldnt stand it. i had to go home. i hurt for her.
my mom came to pick me up. i ate breakfast. i had the weirdest feeling in my stomach, as if like i had a layer of air in the bottom and that the food wasnt getting to me. i dont know if it's because of the diet pills i take?
i honestly have no clue. but oh well.
i took stress pills and then my stomach felt little funny. i think it might be the two pills. but i feel way more relaxed. i really cant stand the fact that i let my friend cheat on her boyfriend, and i watched my boyfriend cheat on me. its disgusting
ew, what was i thinking. when the word threesome came out of my mouth, where the fuck was my heart?
i feeel so dirty,
and i really did respect scott i really did.
and i honestly, now that i think about it. am kind of mad at bill. but what can i say. i gave him permission. im such a hoe, i watched himm cheat on me. eww. im so fucked up. ew.
i seriously dont deserve to be in love. scott doesnt deserve to get this shit from any of us.i just wanna say sorry to anyone who was hurt in this.
and have them know what last night was something ill never forget. its a memory. and a scar.
i feel horrible
<3
-caroline
my mom came to pick me up. i ate breakfast. i had the weirdest feeling in my stomach, as if like i had a layer of air in the bottom and that the food wasnt getting to me. i dont know if it's because of the diet pills i take?
i honestly have no clue. but oh well.
i took stress pills and then my stomach felt little funny. i think it might be the two pills. but i feel way more relaxed. i really cant stand the fact that i let my friend cheat on her boyfriend, and i watched my boyfriend cheat on me. its disgusting
ew, what was i thinking. when the word threesome came out of my mouth, where the fuck was my heart?
i feeel so dirty,
and i really did respect scott i really did.
and i honestly, now that i think about it. am kind of mad at bill. but what can i say. i gave him permission. im such a hoe, i watched himm cheat on me. eww. im so fucked up. ew.
i seriously dont deserve to be in love. scott doesnt deserve to get this shit from any of us.i just wanna say sorry to anyone who was hurt in this.
and have them know what last night was something ill never forget. its a memory. and a scar.
i feel horrible
<3
-caroline