i said i would post the letters between me and bill.
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From: my name is caroline.
Date: Mar 18, 2006 7:10 PM
baby im about to go to soccer
im really sorry. ii was a bitch. im not myself. i can admit it. im not going through anything important. im a stupid girl and i shouldnt make you feel like shit andput you through this when you dont deserve this. im lucky to be going out with you and i hold on to you so much. i used to be different and i have no idea why i changed. i know im not fat. but i like the reasurence. its all mental i guess.. i dont need it. i just like to play pretend. pretend with reality if that makes any sense to you. i dont know anymore... but im really sorry and i hope youre not mad at me. i just really have been thinking these days. and its like you with your nachos and your sourcream. iits like wtf am i supposed to do now. i cant take my life back though. all i have are memories and untold stories that i wish i couldve been told. i just want a life really badly. build me one? please? i promise i wont diet anymore. youre more important then the milkshake that took up wwhole ass. giggle giggle.
but ever since i met you biilly, i just fouund something new in me. like i did have a chance at life. and that i didnt need to live what i had to its fullest and that i could do differently, but i guess i was right, there isnt anything i really can do besides do what i want, and not try to please others. fuck others. hhuh?but you have no idea how much i adore my mom and how much SHES going through. and honestly the only thing that i wish i could do right now is bring my dad back; not only for me.. but for her. shes cries louder and more then me. and i think thats all she needs. i just want to help her, but i cant do everything at once huh? ill figure this all out sometime. put it to the side. switch my life to slomo, and live it by its moment, not by the future. i guess ill just let it develop.
maybe i can talk to you. why did i say that? if i couldnt talk to you i wouldnt be typing this huh. this is probably a piece of shit to you. but it means alot to me that i can talk to you baby. youre my favorite person in the world. everytime im with you, even though i seem tense, all i want is your attention, just so i can get away from my moom, cause with her i get too much attention. all im trying to say is... im sorry. im jealous. of you. and the way you have alife. but i shouldnt be.. becaus ei know what youre going through and even if i cant relate i know that everyone has little problems. and sometimes you cant do shit
shit happens. ill just live it like that. live it how i see it.
mk
im rambling
STFU
mmm.
i love you baby
thankyou for everything youve ever done
call me later
tonight... lets make it beautiful
KINKY SEX?
mmm,
im stoked
with all my heart
and no diet pills
or cigarettes.
your baby
your girl
the person you mean everything to,
caroline
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Date: Mar 18, 2006 7:30 PM Flag spam/abuse. [ ? ]
Subject: RE: hi
hey baby
i really dont think youve been a bitch like you are making yourself seem like you were. your going through some stuff that i dont all know so i cant tell you what to do all the time. what i do know is that i love you for who you are and whenever im with you is amazing. you have so much more going for you than you think, and i really hope you can see that within the near future so you dont resort to something stupid. i love you wayyyyyyy to much to ever lose you and i will do everything within my powet to keep you and make you happpy. you know i dont really like the pills today, but if you feel you need to lose the weight then you can do it elsewise. im not gonna have to tell you that you cant take them perios but i strongly request and suggest that you dont, for your happiness and mine. also, you can do whatever you want, ie smoking, but if you do please just dont do it by me. i dont wanna see you hurt yourself. the reason i care is because i care for you soo much and all i want is the best that i can offer and make fror you.
and ever since i met you, ive know that you are wayy dofferent and unlike anyone else i know and that is why i lve you. i saw that you didnt care, and didnt have to be the typical trendy fucking girl with her prada bag. i honestly respect that in you sooo much.
baby i love you and please dont ever think i dont. i wish i could express how much i love you, but nothing seems to be a visible sign of how much i really do care for you.
i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you!
ummm yea tonight
call me when you get this
i should be able to go out
<3
i lvoe you sooooooo much
-billy, the one who loves you more
From: my name is caroline.
Date: Mar 18, 2006 7:10 PM
baby im about to go to soccer
im really sorry. ii was a bitch. im not myself. i can admit it. im not going through anything important. im a stupid girl and i shouldnt make you feel like shit andput you through this when you dont deserve this. im lucky to be going out with you and i hold on to you so much. i used to be different and i have no idea why i changed. i know im not fat. but i like the reasurence. its all mental i guess.. i dont need it. i just like to play pretend. pretend with reality if that makes any sense to you. i dont know anymore... but im really sorry and i hope youre not mad at me. i just really have been thinking these days. and its like you with your nachos and your sourcream. iits like wtf am i supposed to do now. i cant take my life back though. all i have are memories and untold stories that i wish i couldve been told. i just want a life really badly. build me one? please? i promise i wont diet anymore. youre more important then the milkshake that took up wwhole ass. giggle giggle.
but ever since i met you biilly, i just fouund something new in me. like i did have a chance at life. and that i didnt need to live what i had to its fullest and that i could do differently, but i guess i was right, there isnt anything i really can do besides do what i want, and not try to please others. fuck others. hhuh?but you have no idea how much i adore my mom and how much SHES going through. and honestly the only thing that i wish i could do right now is bring my dad back; not only for me.. but for her. shes cries louder and more then me. and i think thats all she needs. i just want to help her, but i cant do everything at once huh? ill figure this all out sometime. put it to the side. switch my life to slomo, and live it by its moment, not by the future. i guess ill just let it develop.
maybe i can talk to you. why did i say that? if i couldnt talk to you i wouldnt be typing this huh. this is probably a piece of shit to you. but it means alot to me that i can talk to you baby. youre my favorite person in the world. everytime im with you, even though i seem tense, all i want is your attention, just so i can get away from my moom, cause with her i get too much attention. all im trying to say is... im sorry. im jealous. of you. and the way you have alife. but i shouldnt be.. becaus ei know what youre going through and even if i cant relate i know that everyone has little problems. and sometimes you cant do shit
shit happens. ill just live it like that. live it how i see it.
mk
im rambling
STFU
mmm.
i love you baby
thankyou for everything youve ever done
call me later
tonight... lets make it beautiful
KINKY SEX?
mmm,
im stoked
with all my heart
and no diet pills
or cigarettes.
your baby
your girl
the person you mean everything to,
caroline
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Date: Mar 18, 2006 7:30 PM Flag spam/abuse. [ ? ]
Subject: RE: hi
hey baby
i really dont think youve been a bitch like you are making yourself seem like you were. your going through some stuff that i dont all know so i cant tell you what to do all the time. what i do know is that i love you for who you are and whenever im with you is amazing. you have so much more going for you than you think, and i really hope you can see that within the near future so you dont resort to something stupid. i love you wayyyyyyy to much to ever lose you and i will do everything within my powet to keep you and make you happpy. you know i dont really like the pills today, but if you feel you need to lose the weight then you can do it elsewise. im not gonna have to tell you that you cant take them perios but i strongly request and suggest that you dont, for your happiness and mine. also, you can do whatever you want, ie smoking, but if you do please just dont do it by me. i dont wanna see you hurt yourself. the reason i care is because i care for you soo much and all i want is the best that i can offer and make fror you.
and ever since i met you, ive know that you are wayy dofferent and unlike anyone else i know and that is why i lve you. i saw that you didnt care, and didnt have to be the typical trendy fucking girl with her prada bag. i honestly respect that in you sooo much.
baby i love you and please dont ever think i dont. i wish i could express how much i love you, but nothing seems to be a visible sign of how much i really do care for you.
i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you!
ummm yea tonight
call me when you get this
i should be able to go out
<3
i lvoe you sooooooo much
-billy, the one who loves you more