in which I display my own irrelevance to the greater fandom collective
What is the deal with the random new episodes of Bones on totally random nights? There's a new episode tonight, and I am glad I don't care anymore, or I'd be annoyed that they're showing it on a night I have to work until 8:00. Then there's another new episode on Thursday. It's sort of like even Fox thinks the show sucks this season and they're like, "Ugh, I can't take anymore. Let's just air them all and wrap this bad boy up before it gets any worse." It's all very confusing.
And why is the new episode of Criminal Minds on at 10:00 this week? Are they having trouble competing with Idol? Because I find that a little difficult to believe.
At least Harper's Island was a little less boring last week. And C.J.'s got a decent-sized role, about which I am quite happy. His acting chops are still not the greatest, but he's nice to look at and he's got a great smile, so who cares. You'd think watching him in a new role would revive my desire to write copious amounts of Harlan/Marcus, but the truth is I spent the weekend thinking about Speed and Tyler.
It started on Friday night. I was having one of those 'too tired to get up and go to bed' nights, which is how I ended up watching a rerun of Criminal Minds on A&E. It was the Eddie Cibrian episode, which always freaks me out because I forget how good he is at playing creepy. So I was watching that episode and thinking about how short-lived my affair with Morgan/Reid was, and what a fucking tragedy that is, but there are a lot of extenuating circumstances which I do not care to get into, so it really can't be helped.
Anyway, once the episode ended I was going to go to bed. I was. But I didn't. And I didn't change the channel, so when an old CSI: Miami came on and it was one of the New Guy episodes, naturally I started thinking about Speed. Which made me wonder about a detail in the Speed/Tyler series, so I went looking for a particular fic, and that made me wonder about other details, and before I knew it, it was 3:00 am and I had re-read the last half of the series.
At that point I did make myself go to bed, but I spent the rest of the weekend thinking about the loose ends I left when they killed off half my pairing in canon, and how the series would go if I were to take it up again. I'm not saying I'm going to. I mean, I wrote that thing five years ago. There's no reason to beat dead horses, especially when I left it in a decent enough place. Plus there's all that future fic I wrote before I found out they were killing off Speed, and I'm pretty sure some of that would be problematic if I were to continue the series as an AU where Speed didn't die and just quit his job to go back to school and become a professor. Which, granted, I have already written a little bit of, so technically I've already done it.
But I think some of the future fic I wrote assumes that Speed still works at the lab, which would require me to Joss myself, basically, which is kind of weird. Doable, certainly, but weird. And then there's the whole thing with the kid, which I'm pretty sure I only threw out there for someone who turned out to be a pretty lousy 'friend', so I don't really care to revisit it, even if Speed would be an excellent father, and Tyler is canonically very good with children. If by 'canonically' you mean 'within my Speed/Tyler universe', and not show canon, in which he basically has no personality and got fired right after Rory left anyway.
Still, though, if I were ambitious and serious at all about going back to that fandom, I would have to figure out if the timeline worked for Delko to find out that Speed and Tyler were living together when he rushed to Speed's hospital room and found Tyler already there. I'm not sure I could make it work, but I really would like to see Delko say look at Tyler and say, "You're the mystery girl?"
And I like the idea of Speed's parents rushing to his bedside when his brother calls them, Tyler going to the airport to pick them up like a good boyfriend and bringing them to the hospital, and Speed waiting until everyone left except Tyler to ask why he called Speed's parents. And Tyler would laugh and say he didn't, but that he's glad they're here because Matt probably needs the support.
So does Tyler, but he doesn't say that out loud. Instead he just sits at Speed's bedside and holds his hand, watching him sort of drift in and out of sleep. And when Tyler thinks he's finally out for awhile, Speed opens his eyes halfway and grumbles something about Tyler looking terrible and maybe he should go home and get some rest. Which goes over about as well as you'd expect, and Tyler wasn't planning to do this until Speed's completely out of the woods, but he opens his mouth and just blurts out how worried he was and how he doesn't know if he can handle this.
To which Speed answers, "It's my job." And Tyler says that he knows, that he should be prepared for this kind of thing and he thought he was, but then Horatio came and told him what happened and he's never been so scared in his entire life. Then Speed interrupts him and says, "No, shut up for a second." And he sounds really weak, but determined, so Tyler does shut up because he doesn't want to cause him more stress when he's supposed to be healing. So he lets Speed say that it's his job, but it's not his life, and maybe it's time he thought about doing something else.
Which Tyler definitely wasn't expecting, and he's trying not to cry from fear and relief and the idea that Speed's willing to leave the crime lab to make him happy. So he kisses the hand that's still gripped in his and mumbles, "We'll talk about it when you're feeling better" around the lump his throat, and when Speed's hand squeezes his tight he really does start crying. But it doesn't matter, because his eyes are closed again and he finally goes to sleep.
And that's how Speed's family finds them the next day when they come to visit, Tyler sleeping in the chair next to Speed's bed with their hands still clasped, because Speed's sort of a cop, so the hospital doesn't enforce visiting hour rules for him. And Speed's parents are still a little weird about the whole 'gay' thing, because they're kind of assholes in my universe, for some reason, but once they get to know Tyler and see how much he loves Speed and hear Matt talking him up, they start to love him in spite of themselves. Because everyone loves Tyler. Which all leads into this ficlet, and the part I would be filling in, if I were to write it, is really just the jump from them moving in together/letting Horatio know about them, to Speed getting shot and quitting his job.
So that's what I spent the weekend thinking about. What I did not do this weekend was write a single word, original or otherwise, which just goes to show why I have no business thinking about old AUs, let alone working on them. Still, though. I really miss those two sometimes.
Things to look forward to this week: New Criminal Minds. I caught up on the last two new episodes and now I want more. And even more exciting is Henry Thomas on this week's CSI. Fandoms colliding all over the place! I love it when that happens.
In RL news, I have to give up caffeine and sugar for awhile. It is about to get really, really ugly around here. Consider yourselves warned.
And why is the new episode of Criminal Minds on at 10:00 this week? Are they having trouble competing with Idol? Because I find that a little difficult to believe.
At least Harper's Island was a little less boring last week. And C.J.'s got a decent-sized role, about which I am quite happy. His acting chops are still not the greatest, but he's nice to look at and he's got a great smile, so who cares. You'd think watching him in a new role would revive my desire to write copious amounts of Harlan/Marcus, but the truth is I spent the weekend thinking about Speed and Tyler.
It started on Friday night. I was having one of those 'too tired to get up and go to bed' nights, which is how I ended up watching a rerun of Criminal Minds on A&E. It was the Eddie Cibrian episode, which always freaks me out because I forget how good he is at playing creepy. So I was watching that episode and thinking about how short-lived my affair with Morgan/Reid was, and what a fucking tragedy that is, but there are a lot of extenuating circumstances which I do not care to get into, so it really can't be helped.
Anyway, once the episode ended I was going to go to bed. I was. But I didn't. And I didn't change the channel, so when an old CSI: Miami came on and it was one of the New Guy episodes, naturally I started thinking about Speed. Which made me wonder about a detail in the Speed/Tyler series, so I went looking for a particular fic, and that made me wonder about other details, and before I knew it, it was 3:00 am and I had re-read the last half of the series.
At that point I did make myself go to bed, but I spent the rest of the weekend thinking about the loose ends I left when they killed off half my pairing in canon, and how the series would go if I were to take it up again. I'm not saying I'm going to. I mean, I wrote that thing five years ago. There's no reason to beat dead horses, especially when I left it in a decent enough place. Plus there's all that future fic I wrote before I found out they were killing off Speed, and I'm pretty sure some of that would be problematic if I were to continue the series as an AU where Speed didn't die and just quit his job to go back to school and become a professor. Which, granted, I have already written a little bit of, so technically I've already done it.
But I think some of the future fic I wrote assumes that Speed still works at the lab, which would require me to Joss myself, basically, which is kind of weird. Doable, certainly, but weird. And then there's the whole thing with the kid, which I'm pretty sure I only threw out there for someone who turned out to be a pretty lousy 'friend', so I don't really care to revisit it, even if Speed would be an excellent father, and Tyler is canonically very good with children. If by 'canonically' you mean 'within my Speed/Tyler universe', and not show canon, in which he basically has no personality and got fired right after Rory left anyway.
Still, though, if I were ambitious and serious at all about going back to that fandom, I would have to figure out if the timeline worked for Delko to find out that Speed and Tyler were living together when he rushed to Speed's hospital room and found Tyler already there. I'm not sure I could make it work, but I really would like to see Delko say look at Tyler and say, "You're the mystery girl?"
And I like the idea of Speed's parents rushing to his bedside when his brother calls them, Tyler going to the airport to pick them up like a good boyfriend and bringing them to the hospital, and Speed waiting until everyone left except Tyler to ask why he called Speed's parents. And Tyler would laugh and say he didn't, but that he's glad they're here because Matt probably needs the support.
So does Tyler, but he doesn't say that out loud. Instead he just sits at Speed's bedside and holds his hand, watching him sort of drift in and out of sleep. And when Tyler thinks he's finally out for awhile, Speed opens his eyes halfway and grumbles something about Tyler looking terrible and maybe he should go home and get some rest. Which goes over about as well as you'd expect, and Tyler wasn't planning to do this until Speed's completely out of the woods, but he opens his mouth and just blurts out how worried he was and how he doesn't know if he can handle this.
To which Speed answers, "It's my job." And Tyler says that he knows, that he should be prepared for this kind of thing and he thought he was, but then Horatio came and told him what happened and he's never been so scared in his entire life. Then Speed interrupts him and says, "No, shut up for a second." And he sounds really weak, but determined, so Tyler does shut up because he doesn't want to cause him more stress when he's supposed to be healing. So he lets Speed say that it's his job, but it's not his life, and maybe it's time he thought about doing something else.
Which Tyler definitely wasn't expecting, and he's trying not to cry from fear and relief and the idea that Speed's willing to leave the crime lab to make him happy. So he kisses the hand that's still gripped in his and mumbles, "We'll talk about it when you're feeling better" around the lump his throat, and when Speed's hand squeezes his tight he really does start crying. But it doesn't matter, because his eyes are closed again and he finally goes to sleep.
And that's how Speed's family finds them the next day when they come to visit, Tyler sleeping in the chair next to Speed's bed with their hands still clasped, because Speed's sort of a cop, so the hospital doesn't enforce visiting hour rules for him. And Speed's parents are still a little weird about the whole 'gay' thing, because they're kind of assholes in my universe, for some reason, but once they get to know Tyler and see how much he loves Speed and hear Matt talking him up, they start to love him in spite of themselves. Because everyone loves Tyler. Which all leads into this ficlet, and the part I would be filling in, if I were to write it, is really just the jump from them moving in together/letting Horatio know about them, to Speed getting shot and quitting his job.
So that's what I spent the weekend thinking about. What I did not do this weekend was write a single word, original or otherwise, which just goes to show why I have no business thinking about old AUs, let alone working on them. Still, though. I really miss those two sometimes.
Things to look forward to this week: New Criminal Minds. I caught up on the last two new episodes and now I want more. And even more exciting is Henry Thomas on this week's CSI. Fandoms colliding all over the place! I love it when that happens.
In RL news, I have to give up caffeine and sugar for awhile. It is about to get really, really ugly around here. Consider yourselves warned.