FIC - There's A Calm Surrender (Epilogue) -- Nuke BigBang 2012

[carolinablu85]

Title: There's a Calm Surrender
Author: carolinablu85
Artist: frances_veritas ( HERE OMG)
Rating: NC17
Disclaimer: I disclaim.
Pairing: Luke/Noah
Warnings: Characters deaths, Deviation from canon (story starts with canon from summer 2009), Angst, Multiple Flashbacks
Summary: When his dad is killed and he thinks it’s his fault, Luke runs away from his home and his family- and Noah.

Comments

[frances_veritas]

umbrella, you already know how much fucking feels i have for this fic. i mean, i talked about it so much and made emmy look at all my art that she's actually reading it too.

yeah, that's how epic it is. tbh, i don't think i'll ever get over that flashback scene, with luke and noah in the cemetery. and luke breaking down after. that's the part especially where i had to put down my itouch and BREATHE. and as i'm typing this emmy is actually at that part. and she was mentioning how holden was so calm and how much luke BELIEVED him that everything was going to be all right. even though holden was lying, but he stayed calm for luke so luke would believe him and I JUST GOT ANOTHER BOUT OF FEELS AND SERIOUSLY GOD FUCK YOU.

and siiiiiigghh, you made me really want to see an emily/reid friendship here too god damnit. and still mourning that you killed him off :P but at least it was off-screen so i felt a little better. pretty pathetic that you actually made me mourn reid dying in a fic. is it getting redundant yet to say it's all because of your fucking words? whatever, i hate you. THERE. HOW ABOUT THEM WORDS FOR YOU?

ahem. thank you for redeeming lily a bit towards the end. i know she's basically the female version of luke but i can't help but love her messed up ways too. just like i love luke's messed up ways. sometimes. when the writers don't fuck with him so much that even his messed up ways look OOC DEAR LORD. thank you forrrrever for making her extra protective of noah towards the end. cause lily loved noah so much in canon, and it was the best best best.

luke/faith scenes were aces too, as you knooooooooww. i love when big brother luke comes out. and i love it when he gets trumped by his younger siblings and they teach HIM something. and i love love love how much luke's siblings love noah too.

casey and alison forever partners in crime with luke and noah. GAY WOLFPACK WILL PRESERVE UNTIL THE END OF TIME. a part of me wants a little coda where they meet peter and tim for some reason. IDK WHY I JUST CAN SEE IT IN MY HEAD.

damian, of course, was spot on. idk, i always have torn feelings for him. cause you can tell how much he loves luke but at the same time, he will never ever change. like in your fic, once he sees something that he believes is his, he won't stop until he gets it. and it's fucking canon too and ksjfdashfkjffasd. a lot of his actions are so fucking terrible and bad but the love he has for luke gives me mixed feelings about him ALWAYS. and i felt the same while reading your story. and i find myself in that situation too, writing my fic, trying to balance his character out. ELLA IT'S HARD. HOW DID YOU DO IT?

BUT BUT BUT holden fucking snyder will always be luke's father, ALWAYS. that's the one thing i will never be confused about.

so the scene with luke and noah that i had in my gifset. that quote from noah, about having never stopped loving luke and luke's reply with the "everything", was also another scene that i had to stop everything to just breathe. i dont care how pathetic that sounds okay? THESE. TWO. ARE. SO. IN. LOVE. IT PHYSICALLY PAINS ME TO THINK SO OTHERWISE. even in canon. the one thing that the writers did right was write how in love these two were. which is why NO OTHER PERSON PAIRED WITH THEM COULD EVER BE BELIEVABLE as endgame. they painted themselves in a corner with that, let's be real. and i love how the amazing writers in this fandom, like your stupid face, write how in love they are just as well in fics, EVEN BETTER IN FICS OBVS.

in conclusion me the entire time reading this fic:



totes stole that from a friend on tumblr. but it's the truth all the same.

enjoy more of my fucking vomit.

[carolinablu85]

meh. thanks.

Ha. Editing this so you only get THAT as a reply in your email :P But seriously. Thank you is very dumb bland thing to say in return for how much you helped with this. All my gif-ranting and figuring this out, and cutting and then not cutting the car accident flashback, and figuring out what worked in other scenes- you helped me LOTS. You almost had me bringing Holden back from the dead, that's how much you invaded my brain! I needed it, and thank you thank you. And thank you for puppy!Noah.

EMILY REID WOULD HAVE BEEN A GREAT FRIENDSHIP. But knowing ATWT, they would have turned Reid straight at some point and married them off. That would've been horrible. I mean, I would have LAUGHED AND LAUGHED, but it would've been horrible...

If I everrrrr write a another thing in this universe, Tim and Peter will be involved. Because they came back to Pride Rock in the movie and stayed, so of course I'd have to follow the canon. But that's an "if" right now. Ifffff I write something else. IF.

Your face is stupid. Tell Emmy I'm glad she read my fic. Her face is less stupid.