Bleh
I feel notgood today. I'm not sure why--probably a combination of things.
I never have been what one might call "regular" in my monthly cycles (though I've become moreso the closer I get to menopause--go figure). So I'm never exactly sure when my menses will start. I get some clues--different each month, within certain parameters--but basically I have to be prepared any time within about a 1 week window.
So what day does my body choose to start? That's right--today. Now normally I take such natural functions in stride, but this morning for some reason I woke at 2:00 am and could not fall back asleep. I tried various methods of returning to sleep, but nothing worked. So now (at 9:45 am) I'm ready to sleep. But I can't sleep at work. That's just NOT DONE. I do have a prep hour, but if I fall asleep, I seriously think I won't wake up in time for my next class.
Another source of stress is that we have yet another snowstorm moving in--just in time to mess up my travel plans. Last time I looked, the snow starts Friday afternoon and is expected to continue through Saturday afternoon, and then clear out Saturday night. Sunday thus becomes the best day for traveling, but I don't really want to be traveling on Christmas Eve.
Another source of stress is that I have yet to buy Christmas presents. I was sort of thinking of picking something up today after work, but it turns out that our normal payment-directly-to-the-bank is going to be a paper check that doesn't come out till after work today, which means I won't have money in my account until tomorrow (in time for the snowstorm).
Another source of stress is that my stomach is queasy. I'm not sure why--I haven't changed my eating habits or eaten any more or less that usual. But nonetheless I'm queasy. Perhaps a stomach virus is attempting to take over my system in time for the holidays.
One final source of stress is that my house is a huge mess. Of course, this latter is entirely my fault, which doesn't make me feel any better. I'm filled with a bunch of "If onlys"--if only I would stop waiting weeks at a time to clean, if only I had more space, if only I would get off my butt and do the simple household chores...
In order to force myself into a better humor I offer the following daily quiz...
You Are Somewhat Machiavellian
You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead...
But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself.
You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place.
You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to!
How Machiavellian Are You?
I never have been what one might call "regular" in my monthly cycles (though I've become moreso the closer I get to menopause--go figure). So I'm never exactly sure when my menses will start. I get some clues--different each month, within certain parameters--but basically I have to be prepared any time within about a 1 week window.
So what day does my body choose to start? That's right--today. Now normally I take such natural functions in stride, but this morning for some reason I woke at 2:00 am and could not fall back asleep. I tried various methods of returning to sleep, but nothing worked. So now (at 9:45 am) I'm ready to sleep. But I can't sleep at work. That's just NOT DONE. I do have a prep hour, but if I fall asleep, I seriously think I won't wake up in time for my next class.
Another source of stress is that we have yet another snowstorm moving in--just in time to mess up my travel plans. Last time I looked, the snow starts Friday afternoon and is expected to continue through Saturday afternoon, and then clear out Saturday night. Sunday thus becomes the best day for traveling, but I don't really want to be traveling on Christmas Eve.
Another source of stress is that I have yet to buy Christmas presents. I was sort of thinking of picking something up today after work, but it turns out that our normal payment-directly-to-the-bank is going to be a paper check that doesn't come out till after work today, which means I won't have money in my account until tomorrow (in time for the snowstorm).
Another source of stress is that my stomach is queasy. I'm not sure why--I haven't changed my eating habits or eaten any more or less that usual. But nonetheless I'm queasy. Perhaps a stomach virus is attempting to take over my system in time for the holidays.
One final source of stress is that my house is a huge mess. Of course, this latter is entirely my fault, which doesn't make me feel any better. I'm filled with a bunch of "If onlys"--if only I would stop waiting weeks at a time to clean, if only I had more space, if only I would get off my butt and do the simple household chores...
In order to force myself into a better humor I offer the following daily quiz...
You Are Somewhat Machiavellian
You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead...
But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself.
You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place.
You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to!
How Machiavellian Are You?