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my best friend moves to holland in two days.
these happy holidays are tinged with deep, deep sadness.
i really don't know how to cope with this, it feels like a heartbreak and a cruel argument and someone shouting something really mean to you on your bike when you're already having an awful day, like "i hope you crash!" because guess what asshole i have before a number of times, as recently as two days ago, and i've been hit by a car too, and i know people who have died on their bikes, or been critically injured and brain damaged, or broken bones, or gotten a really nasty scraped knee or palm. it's an awful thing to say. and scraped palms are awful, because they never heal, plus you're getting old so your entire arm and shoulder aches for at least two days.
anyways, it feels like all that, compacted into one incessant and lingering sensation.
so while i'm having so much fun trying to grand finale the hell out of her before she goes, i also get scared trying to imagine next semester without her.
she was going to come to my class during her spring break and give a lecture about roman art.
these happy holidays are tinged with deep, deep sadness.
i really don't know how to cope with this, it feels like a heartbreak and a cruel argument and someone shouting something really mean to you on your bike when you're already having an awful day, like "i hope you crash!" because guess what asshole i have before a number of times, as recently as two days ago, and i've been hit by a car too, and i know people who have died on their bikes, or been critically injured and brain damaged, or broken bones, or gotten a really nasty scraped knee or palm. it's an awful thing to say. and scraped palms are awful, because they never heal, plus you're getting old so your entire arm and shoulder aches for at least two days.
anyways, it feels like all that, compacted into one incessant and lingering sensation.
so while i'm having so much fun trying to grand finale the hell out of her before she goes, i also get scared trying to imagine next semester without her.
she was going to come to my class during her spring break and give a lecture about roman art.