Thanksgiving
Today is a day for being thankful for things.
So this makes me stop and think.. what the hell do i have to be thankful for.
Yes, Ill always be thankful for my family, no matter how bad one of my brothers (or sometimes both) make me feel like a peice of shit.
And no matter how mad I get at my Dad, Ill always be thankful for him because he didnt have to do a lot of things he's done for me.
Id have to say, the person in my family Im most thankful for is my sister, Renata. She has always been my hero and my inspiration and my motivation for a lot of things. She took the role of a "mother" when I needed her most. If I could be like anyone, Id want to be her. Because, other than my mother, she's one of the strongest people I know.
Yes, granted, my brothers are strong, but it seems like one of them(not naming names) has always had things come easily for him and it seems like he's perfect and everytime i screw up at something, I pretty much hear about it, and it makes me feel like hell because I sit there and want to say so bad, Well Im sorry I cant be you. Im sorry I didnt have my mom for most of my life. There are some things I cant change. and Im your little sister, you should love me regardless. But thats ok, he doesnt really know me anyway. He's seen me like twice a year since I was 4.
ANYWAY- getting onto friends. Im thankful for the ones that are still there and have stuck by me. so mainly, Sadie..
Sadie has always had an ear to listen to me whine and bitch and cry and never had a time when she just didnt care.. She's always been there for me, and i know from the bottom of my heart she'd never betray me.
As for my other friends, Im thankful for you all, those that havent hurt me, and even those who have. Regardless, You're still my friends, and Im still thankful when you're there for me.
Now, the thing I thought Id be most thankful for...
but I guess this no longer applies.
Curtis. I thought that Id be most thankful for him sticking with me when I screw up, and always being there for me and loving me no matter what.
And I know he still loves me, I have no doubt in my mind of that..
But things change, and people continue to screw up, if only in joking form.
This brings me to one of my favorite lines in a song that ive been listening to a lot lately:
"With so many people to love in my life, why do I worry about one?
But you put the happy in my ness, you put the good times into my fun. "
and he does. I live for this man.. but sometimes, you just have to walk away.
So today, instead of being thankful for him being there, Im going to be thankful to God for helping to give me the strength to get through this and to just walk away
I hope everyone has a better day than mine is geared up for. Be thankful for everything you have ( not just material possesions)
Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!
~Taryn
So this makes me stop and think.. what the hell do i have to be thankful for.
Yes, Ill always be thankful for my family, no matter how bad one of my brothers (or sometimes both) make me feel like a peice of shit.
And no matter how mad I get at my Dad, Ill always be thankful for him because he didnt have to do a lot of things he's done for me.
Id have to say, the person in my family Im most thankful for is my sister, Renata. She has always been my hero and my inspiration and my motivation for a lot of things. She took the role of a "mother" when I needed her most. If I could be like anyone, Id want to be her. Because, other than my mother, she's one of the strongest people I know.
Yes, granted, my brothers are strong, but it seems like one of them(not naming names) has always had things come easily for him and it seems like he's perfect and everytime i screw up at something, I pretty much hear about it, and it makes me feel like hell because I sit there and want to say so bad, Well Im sorry I cant be you. Im sorry I didnt have my mom for most of my life. There are some things I cant change. and Im your little sister, you should love me regardless. But thats ok, he doesnt really know me anyway. He's seen me like twice a year since I was 4.
ANYWAY- getting onto friends. Im thankful for the ones that are still there and have stuck by me. so mainly, Sadie..
Sadie has always had an ear to listen to me whine and bitch and cry and never had a time when she just didnt care.. She's always been there for me, and i know from the bottom of my heart she'd never betray me.
As for my other friends, Im thankful for you all, those that havent hurt me, and even those who have. Regardless, You're still my friends, and Im still thankful when you're there for me.
Now, the thing I thought Id be most thankful for...
but I guess this no longer applies.
Curtis. I thought that Id be most thankful for him sticking with me when I screw up, and always being there for me and loving me no matter what.
And I know he still loves me, I have no doubt in my mind of that..
But things change, and people continue to screw up, if only in joking form.
This brings me to one of my favorite lines in a song that ive been listening to a lot lately:
"With so many people to love in my life, why do I worry about one?
But you put the happy in my ness, you put the good times into my fun. "
and he does. I live for this man.. but sometimes, you just have to walk away.
So today, instead of being thankful for him being there, Im going to be thankful to God for helping to give me the strength to get through this and to just walk away
I hope everyone has a better day than mine is geared up for. Be thankful for everything you have ( not just material possesions)
Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!
~Taryn