Okay, so here is what I am learning: I give too much. I expect too much. And I am horribly bad at friendships because of it ( Read more... )

I cannot do this anymore. Seriously. I have had enough. Everything is so messed up right now and it keeps getting worse. I feel like every time I try to catch my balance, the volcano erupts again. What will it take to catch a break ( Read more... )

Okay, what the fuck is going on?! Another ten-year friendship of mine just ended ( Read more... )

Someone who once hurt me to a severe degree made me cry happy tears today ( Read more... )

Sometimes, when one part of your life is a mess, the other parts do not seem to even matter. Happiness is never consistent. We always need sadness to counterbalance; we need the bad to truly appreciate the good. But in order to feel content, there has to be one or more parts of our lives going well at the same time. Unfortunately for me, this is ( Read more... )

My father just told me that I make it really hard to love me and care about me ( Read more... )

Despite my severe lack of direction right now, or rather a lack of being able to get anywhere I do want to go right now, I have come to a few major life decisions.

Number One.I want to write. Okay, this is nothing new. But it is new that I know I want to write books. I always nonchalantly stated that I want to release a book someday. Earlier, when ( Read more... )

I hate relationships. I want to be in one, a monogamous one. I am loyal, caring and committed. I do everything I can to make the person I love happy. And yet I am always the one who ends up getting hurt. Therefore, I hate them. I am tired. I am tired of working so hard and ending up with nothing or things thrown back in my face. I no longer have ( Read more... )

Feel free to ignore this boring, long-winded entry. It is really just me releasing a lot of feelings I have not written about lately ( Read more... )

I am seriously going to lose it. The amount of negativity in my life is going to push me over the edge. And by that I do not mean something melodramatic like suicide, but I mean that it is going to prevent me from functioning. It may even land me in a hospital. I have been in the emergency room for stress more than once. It truly is amazing how ( Read more... )