Just my luck
Of course, everyone knows that when something good happens to me, something bad is to follow. Actually, a string of bad. Weeks of bad. And in a lot of cases, this seems to always happen when I really, really need something or am really, really looking forward to something. In almost all of these situations, it can be narrowed down to nothing other than "bad luck," something that has never left my side since the day I was born. Something always seems to be preventing me from moving forward in life, moving up the ladder, feeling good about myself. Always, these circumstances are out of my control completely. Nothing that could have been prevented, usually.
Anyway, to the point. The job I really, really wanted... the employer called me today and was going to tell me I was hired. Unfortunately, I am apparently "ineligible" for a Work Study program due to my Financial Profile, which demonstrates your need for money. (Who the hell in post-secondary doesn't need money? They should not even have these ridiculous profiles.) She received an e-mail from Financial Services saying I did not qualify and yet did not give her the reason. So now I have to call these assholes Monday morning, which is the day my job was supposed to start, and see what the hell the problem is. I have no idea what it could be because I indicated I was going to be a full-time student this upcoming year, so they can't think I'm graduating, which would disqualify me. I come from a single-parent family so they can't think I am going to have all of my tuition covered by someone else. I told them I needed $3000 for next year and my entire tuition for the following year (if I do not graduate next year), in which case I would need to take out a loan because I cannot possibly make that much in one summer by myself. I have no idea what kind of crack these people are smoking but I will not let them take this job away from me. If I cannot get them to comply on the phone, I will march right down there in person and talk to them that way.
Luckily, the employer said she would wait to hear from me after I talk to Financial Services. But if I am ineligible, she will obviously not be hiring me. My job was supposed to start Monday morning, as I mentioned, but now I am going to be making her wait until I work out this mess with Financial Services. So it looks like I will be waking up at 8a.m. on Monday morning to call them, and then I will call my employer and let her know what's happening. If by some miracle it was an error and they can fix it, I will go in Monday afternoon to start some training. And if not, she will hire someone else and I will be stuck without a summer job in May, when everyone has stopped hiring. Obviously I applied for more than two jobs but I have not heard back from anyone else, so I was really dependent on getting this job and it is thisclose from my grasp.
I am completely and utterly pissed off right now and even more so for one specific reason: I finished exams yesterday afternoon. And I find out this information today, less than 24 hours later. I am supposed to be celebrating and instead I am now going to be fuming until Monday. Of course this happens, too, after 4p.m. when everything is closed at the university. I did leave Financial Services a voice message but by the time I heard from the employer, everything was closed. Everything closes at school at 4p.m. on Friday.
Of course.
I cannot start feeling sorry for myself yet. I cannot say for sure I will not get the job, but just the fact that this happened at all makes me resent being me. This should not have happened and I should have gotten the call from the employer said I got the job. I need this job. I want this job. I was going to be hired for being me. She liked me in the interview and I did well presenting myself and showing her what I could do for her. I was going to be hired because I was good enough and because I was "better" qualified than someone else. She could have decided to hire someone else but she had decided to hire me. That was all really important to me. And it still is.
Basically... I would have been devastated had she called me and said I did not get the job. I would have to understand that though. But it will be unforgivable if she wants to hire me but someone else says I am not "eligible" for completely unrelated reasons. If I did not get the job due to her choosing someone else, fine. But if I do not get this job due to my university thinking I am not in financial need, heads are going to roll.