suicide........
i'll draw you a picture, i'll draw it with a twist, i'll draw it with a razorblade on top of my wrists, and if i draw it correctly ,a red fountain will appear ,to wash away my sorrows, to wash away my fears.....
suicide...i've thought about it i've tried it i used to cut my self but i haven't done it in awhile but i got so mad one night that i cut my arm up so bad that i lost alot of blood and well not many people know that and why i'm telling you guys i have no clue but anywayz.. would you ever think about it? would you ever have the balls to try it?
what my fiancee jenn doesn't know or any of her family is that i have problems or at least i used to i don't show much of them anymore b/c i have decided that these are my problems and no one should take care of them but me and that is the way it will always be....
What alot of people don't know about me is that i'm from oklahoma and i miss my family back home but i had reasoons that i couldn't stay in oklahoma and i had to join the carnival and i don't really think any of you guys should know why just know if i ain't around in the next 6 months it's b/c i went back home to take care of some problems i have to so that these problems don't hit me harder in the near future so i guess that is about all i got to say
~! josh!~ a.k.a. carnie kid
i love you jenn more than anything in the world and we aren't having 6 ..........
p.s. this is my real first journal entry so people i wanna hear you're comments on this
suicide...i've thought about it i've tried it i used to cut my self but i haven't done it in awhile but i got so mad one night that i cut my arm up so bad that i lost alot of blood and well not many people know that and why i'm telling you guys i have no clue but anywayz.. would you ever think about it? would you ever have the balls to try it?
what my fiancee jenn doesn't know or any of her family is that i have problems or at least i used to i don't show much of them anymore b/c i have decided that these are my problems and no one should take care of them but me and that is the way it will always be....
What alot of people don't know about me is that i'm from oklahoma and i miss my family back home but i had reasoons that i couldn't stay in oklahoma and i had to join the carnival and i don't really think any of you guys should know why just know if i ain't around in the next 6 months it's b/c i went back home to take care of some problems i have to so that these problems don't hit me harder in the near future so i guess that is about all i got to say
~! josh!~ a.k.a. carnie kid
i love you jenn more than anything in the world and we aren't having 6 ..........
p.s. this is my real first journal entry so people i wanna hear you're comments on this