Coal
If there's one thing the last 3 years has taught me, it's resilience. It may sometimes be numbness or coldness but I'm definitely more resilient when it comes to matters of the heart. I've seriously had feelings for maybe 2 people in the last 3 years and they've both fucked me around - seemingly having feelings in a casual relationship and then discarding me. I've been on dates with so many awesome people and felt no attachment. I've basically scored myself a best friend with benefits but I'm not attached further than that. Weirdest position for a woman to be in - seemingly unable to feel any emotional connection. Either I get myself to California and find out if there's really something where there seems to be, or I accept my heart is a lump of coal and I'm probably not going to be in a relationship anytime soon - especially given my schedule - and move on.
Sooo.... Crazy cat lady anyone?
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