Up and go
I want to sell everything I own and bail. I am so stuck in this debt, job & city.
All my plans are dependent on paying this off, but it feels like the light at the end of the tunnel is very far away.
So lonely. My friends are out having a good time, finding people to share their lives with (yay! <3) and travelling.
I'm stuck at home working, trying not to spend money, attempting to find motivation to study...
Probably have to cancel my photo shoot with Adam Jay because of lack of funds, just like Pole Camp.
Jealous of everyone in higher levels of pole than me, everyone in relationships, everyone with disposable income...
I'm basically jealous of everyone doing the things I want to do. I hate it. I just want to be happy for people and get my own shit done.
All my plans are dependent on paying this off, but it feels like the light at the end of the tunnel is very far away.
So lonely. My friends are out having a good time, finding people to share their lives with (yay! <3) and travelling.
I'm stuck at home working, trying not to spend money, attempting to find motivation to study...
Probably have to cancel my photo shoot with Adam Jay because of lack of funds, just like Pole Camp.
Jealous of everyone in higher levels of pole than me, everyone in relationships, everyone with disposable income...
I'm basically jealous of everyone doing the things I want to do. I hate it. I just want to be happy for people and get my own shit done.