I'm dreaming of a not-so-lonely, not-so-broke Christmas
It's Christmas day, I've watched Love Actually, had a shower, gotten dressed and chatted to people on Facebook ever since I got up. Thank goodness I brought my laptop. My brother gave me a gold rams head ring for Christmas, which is quite nice but not really my style. Still, it's a lovely gift. I spent all my Christmas money from Nanna on gifts for other people and most of the rest of my pay left over after tuition. I sent three Christmas cards; one to my parents, one to my next-door neighbour and one to Alex. I've been thinking about him a lot and I don't really want to push it so I figured I'm just going to let it play out. Sigh. I don't want to give up on it but after being apart for a week and knowing there's another 5 days to go before I have a week with him and then another 3 weeks a week after that... I'll be long forgotten by then. I want to quit my job and Uni and I need win the lottery so I can start over. This Christmas has been lonelier than I thought, so far. My brother has been working, his partner has kept to himself and I've hung out at the salon or in the front room on the computer. At least it's been a relaxing break. Spent too much time with my thoughts though, I think. I miss my friends. I miss having a partner to spend Christmas with. Off to Nanna's to eat my vegetarian food and drink booze, eat chocolate and then nap to avoid talking. Sigh.