hmmm....
It has almost been a week since I updated my blog hahahah. To be honest, my motivation is a bit low... You know, one of the reasons why I came to this place was a person who was important as fuck for me. oh well, everything went fucked up again and I'm no longer in any terms with her so now everytime I update my blog I'm like "why the fuck am I even writing this? Is ANYONE even READING this???" -____-;; oh well... it's always good to clear up your thoughts with writing I guess....
I've been very tired the past two weeks again... I seriously feel like something is taking my energy away from me! o_o Every time I come home from school I just go and take a 2-3 hour nap, not good. No wonder I'm tired at school... pfff, I've gotta do something about it hahahahah.
I feel a bit melancholic. why?
Two years since the Kauhajoki (my hometown) school massacre happened.
bleh.... I still remember that day like yesterday.....
My parents will come to see me this weekend. It's very nice to see them, especially my dad, I miss him so much <3 My mum... oh well, it's nice to see her as well but I just wonder what will we fight about next -____-;; my shrink told me that I should write some things down if we're near having a fight again. Like, the things that make me irritated or that makes me want to start a fight. He said that we'll go through them together next time.... It's some kind of anger management; being calm and jotting things down instead of starting a fight. I really need it hahahaahha....
What else to rant about, hmm... ahahahah well, me and my ex-bf have something going on again.... I feel like "doesn't this drama and confusion never end?" seriously... he has hurt me really badly two times already, but somehow he always has this own place in my heart. I've been in love with him for 8 years so.... not easy to forget >___< I have no fucking clue if things will work though...... we both have feelings for each other, but idk. It's always so fucking HARD to make things work between us. Like there would be this huge gap between us. I didn't have that with my ex-gf, we had different kind of problems. yes, my love life is so fucking confusing XDDD Atleast I have this one girl to take my thoughts away from everything whenever I want *ahem* There are times when you just wanna...... well, have some pervy fun. Ah dear lord why am I even writing this XDDDDDDd pffff.....
Okii gotta get ready for my French class before my writing gets too... well, random and pervy XD idk. bai!!!
I've been very tired the past two weeks again... I seriously feel like something is taking my energy away from me! o_o Every time I come home from school I just go and take a 2-3 hour nap, not good. No wonder I'm tired at school... pfff, I've gotta do something about it hahahahah.
I feel a bit melancholic. why?
Two years since the Kauhajoki (my hometown) school massacre happened.
bleh.... I still remember that day like yesterday.....
My parents will come to see me this weekend. It's very nice to see them, especially my dad, I miss him so much <3 My mum... oh well, it's nice to see her as well but I just wonder what will we fight about next -____-;; my shrink told me that I should write some things down if we're near having a fight again. Like, the things that make me irritated or that makes me want to start a fight. He said that we'll go through them together next time.... It's some kind of anger management; being calm and jotting things down instead of starting a fight. I really need it hahahaahha....
What else to rant about, hmm... ahahahah well, me and my ex-bf have something going on again.... I feel like "doesn't this drama and confusion never end?" seriously... he has hurt me really badly two times already, but somehow he always has this own place in my heart. I've been in love with him for 8 years so.... not easy to forget >___< I have no fucking clue if things will work though...... we both have feelings for each other, but idk. It's always so fucking HARD to make things work between us. Like there would be this huge gap between us. I didn't have that with my ex-gf, we had different kind of problems. yes, my love life is so fucking confusing XDDD Atleast I have this one girl to take my thoughts away from everything whenever I want *ahem* There are times when you just wanna...... well, have some pervy fun. Ah dear lord why am I even writing this XDDDDDDd pffff.....
Okii gotta get ready for my French class before my writing gets too... well, random and pervy XD idk. bai!!!